Thursday 30th

hmmm.... i wanted to do my nails. Went to a shop saying it closes at 8 pm but it closed at 7.30pm. oh well..... takeaway some curry chicken with rice.. went home and watch a movie (more like a series). Its a french dog movie. Like detective rex. The dogs name is TOBEY> I am all excited about the movie. It was really nice.How the dog save his master and a little girls life. And how stupid the owner is not to trust his dog and think out of the square.

As night flow in, i had a phone conversation wiht my friend. She said, grace, the only passion you have is Crystal. You don't have other passion for anything. Where is the full of energy, full of ideas grace?? To recall, it has been quite sometime since I had passion for something besides dogs. All my mum says is i should self educate my self. Read more. Read not magazines of Gossips but magazine on finance and business. Self study. Thats the word. Upgrade yourself. I am so low knowledge. thats how she proclaim.

New years coming!! New year resolution shall be made!!! Not many but a few resolutions and i will keep my feet on the ground and try to my best. hahaha So what are my resolutions?! It will soon be reviewed on the blog title: New Year Resolutions of Gracey

Wednesday 29th

Came to work. Literally drag myself off bed to get to work. The work place is so quiet and have no more than 25 people. We usually have about 60 ppl here u know!!

It was a slow day.... time went by.... and time to go home. Went to RIchmond Pacific house for my favourite Roast Duck. hahahahah The funny part is, my mate drop me and he drop me 3 shops away from Pacific Restaurant and there was another restaurant by the name of BBQ House and i thought it was Pacific restaurant and i went in and brought my take away!! Yeah you bet ya, my mate was laughing at me .. saying i was down syndrome!! Arghhh

Got home. Watch dvd, The Punisher, this movie was banned in Malaysia. oh well... really very average... not that special about it. Shower, did a mini facial and my mate from singapore rang me. Chat for a while and went to bed.

Thats it ! Another day done.

Something a friend wrote...which i like to share

Life is not about making money, acquiring power or recognition. Life is definitely not only work! Work is only necessary to keep us living so as to enjoy the beauty and pleasures of life. Life is a balance of Work and Play, Family and Personal time. You have to decide how you want to balance your Life.

Define your priorities, realize what you are able to compromise but always let some of your decisions be based on your instincts. Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of Life, the whole aim of human existence.So, take it easy, do what you want to do and appreciate nature.

Life is fragile, Life is short. Do not take Life for granted. Live a balanced lifestyle and enjoy Life!

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny

~ Quote from Ivan Chua's blog~

Thanks Ivan! It is indeed a great thought.

Monday and Tuesday 27-28th

Normal Day. :)

monday - Woke up, had lunch, went shopping. I couldn't believe it myself but it was good. Got home, had a nap, watch a dvd and had dinner and watch dvd and sleep Oh yeah and done some house chores too.

tuesday - woke up, had lunch, went shopping, wnet for a movie, Meet the Fockers. Had Korean for dinner, watched MULAN 2 dvd and went to bed.

Thats it ladies and gentleman. my long xmas break. Couldn' t ask for more, but that it ended to quick.

Sunday 26th

Boxing Day.

Help a mate to do some fish tank cleaning in the morning. Yeah, so not me isn't it !!!

Then went to Target for a while in Highpoint Marribynong. Don't know how to spell that suburb. Then went to Trucs house for lunch. Vietnamese self- roll meal. "Yuk Ai Gom". Sounds something like that lar... hahaha

After lunch, rush to the airport to see Freddy. He came to Sydney to get married (he is based in Japan) and they came to Melbourne for 2 days. He was suppose to catch up with me on Xmas Day at night for a drink, couldn't make it due to was too stuck with his xmas party, understandable. And then he was suppose to meet me for brunch on 26th. Couldn't make it too. oh well, sicne i made the effort each time to meet him and brought a present, so i decided to give it all the end. I went to the airport and pass the present to him. It was good to meet them again. They are good friends of mine. Fred, my ex bf -> my friend -> my brother. Interesting encounter i have with him. hahaha oh well, all ends well. He is now happily married to his wife, Junko and have a son by the name of "Di Di". Yeah its a dog in nature but a human in our eyes.

Rush home again. Got a wedding to go to and promise to help out. so yeah got change, rush to the wedding, hahaha this is the first wedding i attended where the boys sit at one table and the girls sat at another table.

The day ended around midnight 1 am! I was gone tired. Zzzzzzz

Saturday 24th

Its christmas. Yeah yeah yeah...

Woke up, actually gotten a morning call from Min to meet up at his place at 12.15pm. Neways, I did get there on time. Ain't going to waste time writing every single detail. WE went for our BBQ at the YarraRiver Bank. It was packed with people, mostly asian! hahahaha its really funny. Anyway, we manage to get a place. WE put down our food and started the bbq. Min made 3 salads.

1. Seafood salad.. there is prawns, crab and some fruit cubes with thousand island sauce.
2. Vege salad.. there is mango slices, avacado, and some salads.
3. PLain salad... just spinach and french dressing.

Then we have our bbq feast. Hmm.. we have kebabs, steak, salmon, tuna, sweeet potato, mushroom, chicken wings, cherries, plums, grapes, drinks. Yeah, thats about it as i could remember. IT was a feast!!!!! Thanks Min. Great food and all i pay was $15 for the bbq.

I brought Crystal there. She had a great time. Running around, lying on the grass, sniffing here and sniffing there.

I got home about 5 pm. Gave crystal a bath and i was gone! So tired. Went for a nap, felt even worse. My whole body was feeling so tired. God knows why. Anyway, shower and went to Trungs house for dinner!!! One of my favourite soup. Lobsters and vege. Yummmmyyy!! Another feast! ahahaha

Chirstmas was simple but really nice. I am so happy i got to have the Xmas Lunch and Xmas dinner. A bit different from the usual style where in Msia i got to spend it with family, but then hey, any gatherings, whether with 2 ppl or with 10 ppl, it is still part of the festive season and it was great !

Good Night everyone!

Friday 24th

Chirstmas Eve.

Still got to work. hahaah. Came in to work. It was pretty good. Boss not in (due to holidays). Yipee... still we have a great deadline of work to meet so, yes it is another working day.

However, our country director gave an email. Part of the email he quote "
PS for those of you at work today, I am not exactly sure of the protocol but I am happy that you all take your leave from the office just after lunch today"

YEs!! So our manager blast out another email and told us we can leave at 1 pm !! WE did. Well, I did. I went off. And guess where i go? I went shopping again. Target.... Cotton ON....... Myers. seriously, it was crazy. The people, the queue. Oh well, it is Christmas seasons!

Hmm...went home around 3pm. Went online. OMG. I can't recall. I am thinking for more than 3 minutes. haahahha I recall now. I went to my favourite steak place in Kew. Had yummy Scotch Fillet with my mates. hahaah 3 guys and 1 girl. ahahahah Got home, baked my cheesecake (for the bbq tomorrow) and Zzzzzz .

Merry Chirstmas everyone!! :)

Thursday 23 Dec

One more day to Chirstmas Eve. After work, I went shopping !! So happy. Went shopping. hahaha It was a very warm day .. actually i put it as HOT day. It was nearly 34 degrees but i was going for a dinner date so might as well hang around in the city.

I was suppose to buy a wedding present but instead, once i step into target. I was stucked. As from 7 pm, i was there. I found 2 pair of shoes, 1 set of night wear, 1 jeans and 1 dress. Total : AUD 170. While i was walking out of target center, i walked pass Syndicate and found this dress cost AUD 40. It was a yellow dress. Really very nice but it require a lot of alterations. hmmm..should i get it? But i love it. There were others dresses but cost about AUD 80. Should i buy them? I always wanted dresses like so but was logically enough to know that i would hardly wear them. hmm.......

It was nearly 8.30 pm. Had my dinner at Pacific house. Had my roast duck. Yummyyy!!!

Got home around 10ish pm. Shower, tugged myself to bed. I am so happy that i got the ability to shop, to have a nice dinner. THank you God.Thank you for giving me this luxury of not living in proverty. To live under someone else financial mercy~ I love it. The independence I have today if indeed very sweet and nice.

Merry Chirstmas and have a happy New Year!~

Wednesday 22 Dec

Nothing special on this day. Just that my boss left work at 3 pm and it was like heaven to us. haahha After work, went to the city and walk around. Needed some time to relax my brain cells. Brought a book, The Dog Walker. Gonna read it this chirstmas holiday. If it is good book, i would mail this book to someone who shares the same passion to Dogs as I do. Hopefully he would too have the time to read it.

Had KFC for dinner! yeah.... never had it for a long time and it is indeed very yummy. I had the Xtreme pack. 1 piece of chicke, 1 zinger burger, chips, a drink and a mashed potato.

Catch up wtih Amanda and Shaun to pass a wedding present ot them for they are going to a friends wedding. Finished my tvb series, had my shower and went to bed (manage to finish the last part of the movie "A few good men") "You can't handle the truth!"

To be frank, in times, how often can we human beings can handle the truth? When u find out ur partner is cheating on you, or when u heard that someone you love is getting married, or when u lost a few thousand dollars , sometimes we don't know what to do when we heard the truth. Of course there are a lot of comforting words or encouragement words to help us to continue our life and to accept the truth, but then not everyone can handle the truth that well as others.

It would be fun this chirstmas. Having Chirstmas spririt in me, but don't feel like doing anything for Chirstmas.

Tuesday 21 Dec

Another few more days to chirstmas. hmm.....

OH well, tues is the chinese "Guo Dong". People would eat the tang yuen (glutinous rice flour balls) in preparation for the annual Dong Zhi (Winter Solstice) festival.

"The whole family would come together to make rice balls, which were symbolic of fullness and being together. " I miss this part. MY family is all far away in Malaysia. After work, i walked to the CHinese Groceries and brought 2 packets (one of Red bean paste and another with Black Sesame Paste) , and some rock sugar and some ginger. Got home, had dinner and about 10 pm i made some for myself. hehehe. A packet has 12. I no way could finish them so i took 2. while eating i was watching a TVB series. It was not bad the Tang Yuen. Indeed delicious for i haven't enjoy them for sometime.

It would be nice if someone else was around to share this day with me. But then, to think about it, it isn't that bad to be able to enjoy them by myself. A sense of courage and a sense of independence came through once again. Something that i have lost withouth even knowing.

Monday 20 Dec

Monday was another awful day at work. Start at 10 am (no choice, was force to take up that time) and came in. Had a headache. Was thinking hard how to achieve my target for the month or else my bonus would be down the drain. Finishing off my Taiwan campaign and hope to get something good out of it. Thank god, i manage to get 5 opportunities out of it. Not really the A class type, but hey, it is pass to become one. Could't care less, it is hard to make everyone happy. At least i get my bonus! ahahaha. hey, i worked hard alright, i think i deserve the bonus more than anything.

Had sofitel's Chinese "won ton noodle soup" for lunch due to it was windy out there and i got my wrong outfit on. hahaha yeah... the wrong wear. It was alright. Eatable i guess. Sometimes i wonder, maybe i should have a change of my diet? Maybe just eating salads for lunch or fruits. I was told it is a good way to reduce weight. Yeah, i am into this losing weight issue again. hey, i reduce not to eat Rice at night. I think it did work a little. Not much, but a little. And trying to walk home. However, the weather isn't right. it is alright windy and cold. I hate to walk back when it is coldddddddddddd....

It was a simple night. Had takeaway for dinner. A1 restaurant, ciffon xxx with rice. watch the movie 8MM. Yuck.... it was quite a triller movie. I find my veins moving up and down. It is about this rich man, got a tape (8 mm ) of a porno movie, but it isn't a normal porno movie, but a sick one. The girl get rapes and butchered. Yeah killed. And the rich man's wife found the tape one day (the man died already) and ask a private investigator to find the source of the tape and to find whether the girl is still alive, and why such a tape is with the husband... he did.... and went through a lot, nearly losing his life....... and ..... ahhaahhahahahahaha... for you to watch to know now! Ain't writing such sick story out. I feel really sorry for the girl as i know in US, there is such kind of thing. These things do happen and once again, i am glad i am not in US>

As for my love life, last night i did had a thought about it as Amy ( my work collegue and friend) mention something. Some woman look for good looks guy, some look for rich. I wonder to myself, which one am i looking for? Or am i on the 3rd choice, someone not rich, not good looking, but make me laugh with his silly movement?? heheeh. I really wonder.... am i seeking for the simple life or the fairy tale life that i yearn for day and night?

~To wonder is a blessing in disguise, yet to dream is a gift not everyone knows ~ Written by Gracey 10.26 am

My Weekend 18-19 Dec

As Friday I had another Chirstmas Party to attend. It was at a place call "japenese warehouse". It is awesome. pretty hot though. there were gambling table, no real money was in place and end of the night whoeever wins the most "chips" get a prize. not a bad idea indeed. Really different. It was my ex-company xmas party and it was great to catch up with them. I am surprise that some of them could still remember my name. I am indeed touched and felt warmed. At least I felt that I am always welcome there. I didn't drink a lot. Just couple of beers and coke. One thing bad abt that party, there was no food. Gosh, ppl were starving. I guess they have eaten before they went as the party started at 8 pm. :)

Left the place about 12.30 am and i was not hungry but yet feeling a bit empty so i went for supper. The porridge wasn't good at all, but it was nice to have supper for it seems ages since i had been out that late and went for supper. Not as if it is a good thing for my weight but it was kinda fun. Straight home, in the bed.

Saturday - woke up. Did housechores. No kidding, i vacummed, wash clothes, clean the dishes, tidy up the dining room. By then, it was 2 pm and went for a late lunch. Desert House, and had my lemon grass pork chop with rice. hahaah I didn't finish my rice. Just half of it ! After that, went to Myers to buy a wedding present. But before that i went to Nike. Found this pair of shoes that i really like. The code is 308604061, its a Red striped shoes and it cost AUD 239.00. Size 7. I brought it! I brought it and walked to myers. Got the wedding gift, got it wrap (cost me another $10 to get it wrap!!) but then, i felt kinda awful to spend $200 on a nike shoes. U bet ya! I went and returned them. hahahah I did. I walked back to the Nike shop and returned the shoes. Hopefully by next month, i could get it in the warehouse sale. yeah right. Would i be that lucky?! haih....

Sunday - The best!!!!!!!!! Stayed at home, had maggi mee for lunch (with egg and 2 slice of ham) and watch TVB series (using VCD) so charm.. sit in front of the monitor until my neck hurts. haahha but then it was indeed interesting..... watched until 4 pm, then gave my daughter a bath and then about 5ish went to bake my MANGO cake. Eatable but not to my standard of success.

Thats about it. My simple but yet kinda "different" weekend.

Christmas Party @ Work Place

Yesterday was my office place Chirstmas party. The usual type. Just alcohol and finger food. I was there since 7 pm and went home about 10pm. Most of collegue brought their partners and of course, I was there myself. Not a bad feeling in a way to be single isn't it? I wonder…….

Having this headache as I write this. Gesh, couple of beers, borbon coke and a screw driver really kicks in. hahahaha Tonight… another Chirstmas party to go, of my previous company I work in. Another drinking and partying night. But then, I think I am getting old. It seems I am not as wild and crazy as I use to be. It seems more of a socializing event than a really partying event. But if I don't, what else can I do on a Friday night?! Home alone again? :) Whoever reads my blog, for sure would think, this girl is a weird one. She is such a pesimistic person and sad. Am I really that sad? I don't think so. But yet I have to agree, I am not happy. Not happy about what? That I really don't know.

As lately my lifestyle has changed and so have I to listen to others relationships sweet and bad times.

A guy brought a tiffany necklace to his new gf that he went out less than 4 months for her birthday. A guy brought LV bags to his gf for every occasions. A guy pick and drives his gf to work no matter how early or late it is. A guy that everyone thought would never get married proposed to his gf of 1.5 years. A guy pay for his gf holidays and shopping spree.

Some Female find it envyness to those gf of theirs that gets all this attention and gifts, but yet not all female will. Some request for one thing and others for another. But yet I self wonder, what is it that I am in need? All my ex bf say I have been a great gf but yet, I never recall getting pampered as such. Sometimes I feel myself lucky to yet get these great remarks from them but yet I felt stupid too. Why didn't I just waited for the right one? Am I just taking it as it goes and fallen again to the relationship trap? None of my ex bf really went after me. No sweet talks on the phones, no courtship, no presents, no romance. Maybe that’s why they think I am good. Because they never had to spend time nor money nor energy to court me. To go after me. Maybe my understanding of how others feel put me into that shoes. OR is it I am too kind and not patient type to play the game? Or is it I am someone that is in need of cuddles? I really have been thinking and really have been wondering.
In some way, I gave up in finding the right one. Should I just settle for someones companionship? Or should I settle for someone that can provide me the romance but yet a comfortable life that I would like to live in? Some say I am too young to take this too seriously but some yet say I should not just juggle around. Is sleeping with someone, seeing that someone everyday but yet knowing deeply this is not the husband you wish for and never could never figure out whether u want to spend rest of your time with this man, consider your partner/bf? In this era, there are s** buddy, f*** buddies, flirting buddies, or hanging out buddies… all sort of relationship status have occurred since my teenage time. In that, couples can name them whatever they like and still feel comfortable about it.

Girl that have really mess up life between their 19-25 years old of life have found a good bf at last. However, due to their past, it makes them look really low and slutty. Is it their fault? But is the society able accept others past? But yet it is debatable why ppl knowing doing so would give them the "past" to be haunted yet doing it and then say, it was the past, I can't do anything, I was young and naïve. But yet how naïve are we? Is it rebelous? Or is it really naïve? Or is it a excuse? I sometimes wonder how does it feels to do one-night stand. Is it really guys have a gentlemans style that they won't be a broadcast and tell their friends that they slept with you before? Is it so simple to accept the fact this is a modern era and ppl can accept it.

The society have their own little perception towards air stewards, models, actress. They have the body and beauty and some even with the education. But yet why ppl think of them as another "public relationship" providers? And they think that those who thinks like that are just plain jeolous of how beautilful they are and how they can attract attention. Winners of beauty contest are still a human being. They would too like to find a bf, but when they find someone who is rich, some ppl would think they are getting "catered". Is this thinking bias? But how often ppl don't think like that besides thoese that is in the industry themselves?

I wonder, if I have the right body, would I find my prince charming? Is it because of my body that I couldn't find someone right? Or is it something wrong with my personality? Am I too stuck up? Too arrogant? Too childish? Or just plain too normal? I always thought of building my career is more important than anything because of who I am and whom I was expected to be. But yet, am I that smart or strong? Is it to be rich and successful what I am really looking for? Why I am putting myself into these situation of suffering for ? Is it to proof to myself or to proof to my family that I do not need to beg for their help to find me a job and a job that would not put shame to the family name?
It is all words. Words I type each day to comfort myself. Words I asked myself so that I can know and understand myself better. Being in a foreign country is really quite remarkable experience. Being able to pursue education overseas and working in a corporate company overseas with a nationality of another country, is indeed lucky.

Why wouldn't I just work as a adminstration perosn? 9-5 job. Go home, enjoy life with my partner. Rent a house in the suburb, drive a normal car. Have a holiday once in 2 years time. But yet, life is simple. Don't have to take any crap from anyone. Or should I strive further for a profession? A career that pays 6 figure, own a house and a car, and have an investment portfolio?

Either one or the other. A choice to make and not turn back to regret. How I wish there is someone to guide me to figure out which one is the right one for me and how to pursue that "happy" life.

I laugh and smile everyday. Joke and being cheerful. But who would really know is it a smile from my heart and soul or a smile that I made to remind myself and others that I am happy…. To come to think of it, I am a big time loser. A real big time loser. Achieve nothing at this age and yet didn't know how to enjoy life. I had none. I envy others who had a great uni time or even a great young age time. As for me, all I had in memory is a unhappy childhood. A boring college time and a meaningless University life. And now, at a age of 24, I ask for a life which I don't even know what life I am looking for. How pathetic I can be. Not to say, really a big time loser!!

Well.... it took me more than 15 mintues just to get a username!!! Gesh....