As my running nose kicked in, I got sick. With the flu, cough, sore throat, fever... the LOT!!
So i was sick all through my xmas break, eating only apples, porridge and sometimes, still apples. hmm...... kinda boring. but the fuji apple do get me over it. Hence i got this medicine to eat, i better have something in my stomach.
Sick on 23rd, sick on 24th (chirstmas eve) , sick on 25th, sick on 26th (boxing day)
Thanks to all my friends who sms / call me to wish me merrry chirstmas. Thank you soooo much. It is warm in heart to have the wishes as I have no family to celebrate xmas again. I miss you guys.. everyone... i miss my family, i miss my friends in malaysia and in singapore and in Hong Kong and in China and in Taiwan and in UK and in US and in Indo and in and in Melbourne too hahaha come on .... we met in melbourne but doesn't mean u guys are still in melbourne right this period ok?! :)
Brand new start coming along the way.. new year resolutions.... new year hopes... everything is fresh... fresh relationship, fresh life, fresh health...... laguna matata Gracey !!
12.29.2005
22 December 05
Lion King Musical. Finally I went and watch it. FINALLY!!! IT IS absotely wonderful. The best. No way Annie the musical can beat this. Go watch it. It is worth every dime and penny. The cast, the music, the movement, the custome. Everything is just good. I can't find a fault in it. I was so involve with the musical, but one and only thing, I GOT RUNNING nose during that night and you betcha, i was blowing and sneezing half of the time. ehehheeh but what to do.... it took my ages to get ppl to go with me and a ticket cost me Aud 100 so i am getting my ass there to watch it!!!Once again ladies and gentleman it is Good. don't be stingy and go watch it if u can ! :)
12.21.2005
12.01.2005
Little Poem for the day
I am not a beauty but yet I am not a blonde
To compare you I must not but to care for you I should
Desperate I shall not be
Dreaming I shall continue to be
Written by Gracey in Nov 05
To compare you I must not but to care for you I should
Desperate I shall not be
Dreaming I shall continue to be
Written by Gracey in Nov 05
1 December 05
When a female meet a man (usually occurs in the asian's culture), the man would ask the female how many bf/partners you have before. With a number she provides, it would be easily assume how many man she slept with. However this number can provide 2 scenario:
1. a high number, means she is a easy goer and got f*** by many men.
2. a low number, ohhh she is a good good girl.
however, with both scenario there could also be a wrong assumption.
Scenario 1: Yeah, she have 8 boyfriends/partners before but doesn't mean she is a bicycle that can easily be ride on. It could be just she is a emotionally weak person and easily believe she is in love with the guy and easily get attracted to the wrong guy that at end abuse her verbally or even physically, or even possesive guy or even a guy that lives on her or a guy who is complete a loser. However, it is too possible she is a high sexual driven girl and enjoys sexual encoutners with different males.
Scenario 2: A girl with lets say 2 boyfriends in life. Those are the ones she consider official, the ones she lets her friends know about and even her family. What about the hidden ones? What about the ones that she pick up at clubs and pubs and have one night stand? or even the ones that she flings on and have casual sex with? Does that make her any better than scenario 1?
IN this society, specially the Asian group and society, they always think that girls lose out. And guys find it as a trouphy as how many women that they slept with. It works in the caucasian society but they are more open about it and respect the other party. Of course, this is a generalising situation. THere are good and bad (asian and caucasian) men. Those with a gentleman personality and those with a horrible character.
In other hands, when a guy tells a girl his numbers, it too comes out with 2 scenario:
Scenario 1: High number- he is smooth and definitely got his mini manual/guidelines to pursee so many woman and to increase his numbers. And who knows? with those amount of experience, he may be "good" in bed. But yet, could there be another story? That he is a selfish man. He only gets what he wants but doesn't know how to please the other party. Or even the most simple backfire, he is just boosting the number to make him look "cool"
Scenario 2: Low Number - he is a good good boy. Unexpeirience. Once again, how would someone know for real is he really the sheep? or a wolf in a sheep skin disguise?
In life we fall in love, we learn and we move on. There are many wrong sexual relationships you encounters sometimes and there are some that are really worth it and you will never regret you have that special night/nights with that person. Whether it is in a proper relationships or the nowadays popularity , sex/fuck buddies. As long as you have no regrets, it is worth it. And if u done some that you regret and feel that you are stupid to have done so with that guy/girl, learn from it and move on. If she/he would want to spread and boast as a throphy, then it is lack of civilasation and manners. Yes, it would hurt you no matter what, but move on. Thats all it matters. Somethings are meant to haunt you forever but then it is too to remind you that you learnt another lesson and should learn to dealt with it in a more mature manner and of course a more agreeable manner and not dilusion urself.
All the best to all the guys and girls out there that encounters this problems. Hope you too would not judge someone by how many person he/she slept with. Sometimes one doesn't want to know the numbers, because he/she is afraid to judge or it too can be he/she may just be a person who love/like you for who you are and is just attractive to you as the simplicity of who you are. This I learnt! If he/she wants to share, she/he would openly tell you. However, still have safe precaution. Getting sexual illness or unwanted pregnancy is a mistake you made with yoruself knowing. Then and so, you got no one to blame for not being careful and being not selfish.
Man and Woman around the world- Fall in Love, Learn From It and Move ON. There is always someone for someone. Never give up and never feel you are not good enough for someone. Overweight or Underweight. 50's or 20's. There is always "chemistry" out there!
1. a high number, means she is a easy goer and got f*** by many men.
2. a low number, ohhh she is a good good girl.
however, with both scenario there could also be a wrong assumption.
Scenario 1: Yeah, she have 8 boyfriends/partners before but doesn't mean she is a bicycle that can easily be ride on. It could be just she is a emotionally weak person and easily believe she is in love with the guy and easily get attracted to the wrong guy that at end abuse her verbally or even physically, or even possesive guy or even a guy that lives on her or a guy who is complete a loser. However, it is too possible she is a high sexual driven girl and enjoys sexual encoutners with different males.
Scenario 2: A girl with lets say 2 boyfriends in life. Those are the ones she consider official, the ones she lets her friends know about and even her family. What about the hidden ones? What about the ones that she pick up at clubs and pubs and have one night stand? or even the ones that she flings on and have casual sex with? Does that make her any better than scenario 1?
IN this society, specially the Asian group and society, they always think that girls lose out. And guys find it as a trouphy as how many women that they slept with. It works in the caucasian society but they are more open about it and respect the other party. Of course, this is a generalising situation. THere are good and bad (asian and caucasian) men. Those with a gentleman personality and those with a horrible character.
In other hands, when a guy tells a girl his numbers, it too comes out with 2 scenario:
Scenario 1: High number- he is smooth and definitely got his mini manual/guidelines to pursee so many woman and to increase his numbers. And who knows? with those amount of experience, he may be "good" in bed. But yet, could there be another story? That he is a selfish man. He only gets what he wants but doesn't know how to please the other party. Or even the most simple backfire, he is just boosting the number to make him look "cool"
Scenario 2: Low Number - he is a good good boy. Unexpeirience. Once again, how would someone know for real is he really the sheep? or a wolf in a sheep skin disguise?
In life we fall in love, we learn and we move on. There are many wrong sexual relationships you encounters sometimes and there are some that are really worth it and you will never regret you have that special night/nights with that person. Whether it is in a proper relationships or the nowadays popularity , sex/fuck buddies. As long as you have no regrets, it is worth it. And if u done some that you regret and feel that you are stupid to have done so with that guy/girl, learn from it and move on. If she/he would want to spread and boast as a throphy, then it is lack of civilasation and manners. Yes, it would hurt you no matter what, but move on. Thats all it matters. Somethings are meant to haunt you forever but then it is too to remind you that you learnt another lesson and should learn to dealt with it in a more mature manner and of course a more agreeable manner and not dilusion urself.
All the best to all the guys and girls out there that encounters this problems. Hope you too would not judge someone by how many person he/she slept with. Sometimes one doesn't want to know the numbers, because he/she is afraid to judge or it too can be he/she may just be a person who love/like you for who you are and is just attractive to you as the simplicity of who you are. This I learnt! If he/she wants to share, she/he would openly tell you. However, still have safe precaution. Getting sexual illness or unwanted pregnancy is a mistake you made with yoruself knowing. Then and so, you got no one to blame for not being careful and being not selfish.
Man and Woman around the world- Fall in Love, Learn From It and Move ON. There is always someone for someone. Never give up and never feel you are not good enough for someone. Overweight or Underweight. 50's or 20's. There is always "chemistry" out there!
17 November 05
Melbourne oh my melbourne. It is warm and hot today but I am stuck in the office.
Today I have Korean for lunch alone. Sitting in a corner wating for my Korean bento box. This time i was smart and brought a magazine alone. But as i was not reading, I was givin myself some reflection. Lunch have 2 main version (exclude those that eat at their desk at work)
Version A- everywhere in the street you get to see someone sitting in a corner with a book, muching off their wholemeal bread or rolls. In restaurants, you get to see someone sitting there alone wandering around to amuze themselves while waiting for their food to arrive.
version B - you will see someone else with a partner talking and having their lunch. Some with books, some with folders and some with wine.
Yesterday i too had korean bento box for lunch with my mate. As we in the version of B, we were talking about mid 20s little simple life. After work we just want to go home. We always ask others what u doing afer work, as if we were energetic to go for a run or a climb the mountain, but when time gets close to 5, we can feel the tiredness hitting in. During dinner time, we don't know what to talk about to our friends, it seems the topic we can bring up are so limited. But yet silence during the dinner table seems rude. In that, we would like to have a partner to just have dinner with but yet no need to speak. Then go home and rest.
Companionship. Someone to do things with or to talk to or to listen to. As I scroll through my phonebook via mobile today, I realise I got more international numbers than local numbers. I find there is only so limited friends I could call out to have lunches with. Of course with my still studing friends, this woud not occur. They are in their holidays and you can see the huge difference.
I am not being a pessimistic eventhough it seems like i am on when i write my blogs. In real life, these are the issues and topics some ppl go through each day. Not to say if u think optimisticly, u feel better. But thats lying to youself for you didn't really find a real solution to it.
As I was enjoying my MacDonalds 50cents sundae, i felt really good. Extemely good. Once again, I enjoy the independence I have built over these years. I enjoy the feeling knowing that I no longer think about others. I enjoy knowing I found something that encourage me to move on and to remind me of how to enjoy life.
Melbourne oh Melbourne. It has been 6 years. The weather, the people, the culture, the slang, the sports, the alcohol, the wackyness of nights, the security, the tax system, the pubs, the clubs, the restaurant, the chinatown, the suburbs, the shopping, the events, the celebration and to conclude, THE PEOPLE once again
THank you to all the people I know. Thank you for your friendship and help for all these years. Thank you for the pain and disapointment. Thank you for the betrayals and back-stabbing. Thank you for all teachings and reminders. Without them, I would not have learnt.
For some nationalities, permanent residency to them is the only way to have a better life. But to me, it is just an opportunity for me to explore a different nation. a different culture.
Recently heard that a few of my friends are going through a cross path phase. Whether to go back to their home country (where they born) or to take up PR and work here. If they ask me, I will say this: Ask yourself, what is the reason you want PR for?! Just because others have it and u want it. Or is it you think it is something good to have jsut incase the home country goes crazy? A PR Application cost nearly $3000 which isn't say a huge sum, but with a Terms of staying 2 out of 5 years will kick you in reality.
Good Luck girls in finding the path that suits you. Eventhough u are in a intersection. Remember there isn't a Right nor Wrong path. Any path would give you something, happy or sad memories, it still gives you a learning curve experience.
Crystal is my commitment. She is my everything. Eventhough with her, my choices and flexibility are restrain, but to think abt it, I never regreted having her. Her love and affection to me is priceless. Extremely uncomparable. To accept me, you need to accept her first. Again, to accept a path, you need to accept you faith first. For it would give you uncomparable support and courage.
Today I have Korean for lunch alone. Sitting in a corner wating for my Korean bento box. This time i was smart and brought a magazine alone. But as i was not reading, I was givin myself some reflection. Lunch have 2 main version (exclude those that eat at their desk at work)
Version A- everywhere in the street you get to see someone sitting in a corner with a book, muching off their wholemeal bread or rolls. In restaurants, you get to see someone sitting there alone wandering around to amuze themselves while waiting for their food to arrive.
version B - you will see someone else with a partner talking and having their lunch. Some with books, some with folders and some with wine.
Yesterday i too had korean bento box for lunch with my mate. As we in the version of B, we were talking about mid 20s little simple life. After work we just want to go home. We always ask others what u doing afer work, as if we were energetic to go for a run or a climb the mountain, but when time gets close to 5, we can feel the tiredness hitting in. During dinner time, we don't know what to talk about to our friends, it seems the topic we can bring up are so limited. But yet silence during the dinner table seems rude. In that, we would like to have a partner to just have dinner with but yet no need to speak. Then go home and rest.
Companionship. Someone to do things with or to talk to or to listen to. As I scroll through my phonebook via mobile today, I realise I got more international numbers than local numbers. I find there is only so limited friends I could call out to have lunches with. Of course with my still studing friends, this woud not occur. They are in their holidays and you can see the huge difference.
I am not being a pessimistic eventhough it seems like i am on when i write my blogs. In real life, these are the issues and topics some ppl go through each day. Not to say if u think optimisticly, u feel better. But thats lying to youself for you didn't really find a real solution to it.
As I was enjoying my MacDonalds 50cents sundae, i felt really good. Extemely good. Once again, I enjoy the independence I have built over these years. I enjoy the feeling knowing that I no longer think about others. I enjoy knowing I found something that encourage me to move on and to remind me of how to enjoy life.
Melbourne oh Melbourne. It has been 6 years. The weather, the people, the culture, the slang, the sports, the alcohol, the wackyness of nights, the security, the tax system, the pubs, the clubs, the restaurant, the chinatown, the suburbs, the shopping, the events, the celebration and to conclude, THE PEOPLE once again
THank you to all the people I know. Thank you for your friendship and help for all these years. Thank you for the pain and disapointment. Thank you for the betrayals and back-stabbing. Thank you for all teachings and reminders. Without them, I would not have learnt.
For some nationalities, permanent residency to them is the only way to have a better life. But to me, it is just an opportunity for me to explore a different nation. a different culture.
Recently heard that a few of my friends are going through a cross path phase. Whether to go back to their home country (where they born) or to take up PR and work here. If they ask me, I will say this: Ask yourself, what is the reason you want PR for?! Just because others have it and u want it. Or is it you think it is something good to have jsut incase the home country goes crazy? A PR Application cost nearly $3000 which isn't say a huge sum, but with a Terms of staying 2 out of 5 years will kick you in reality.
Good Luck girls in finding the path that suits you. Eventhough u are in a intersection. Remember there isn't a Right nor Wrong path. Any path would give you something, happy or sad memories, it still gives you a learning curve experience.
Crystal is my commitment. She is my everything. Eventhough with her, my choices and flexibility are restrain, but to think abt it, I never regreted having her. Her love and affection to me is priceless. Extremely uncomparable. To accept me, you need to accept her first. Again, to accept a path, you need to accept you faith first. For it would give you uncomparable support and courage.
11.12.2005
12 Nov 05
It has been quite some time since i blogged.
I was away for a month (September). Went to Hong Kong to visit my sister, and went to singapore. Time was sooo rush that i don't think i had a rest. Phones were ringing, meeting up with friends, ex-collegues, ex-uni mates, ex-high school mates, ex-college mates and tuition friends and friends met via internet.
Arrive back Melbourne on Friday and started my new job on monday. Talk about the work next time.
Tonight I would like to share abt something else.
As these few days, I had a job offer to work in singapore but I was troubled whether to accept it. I always wanted to go. But yet I feel that my decision making process have been confused, with whether this is the time/trip to go or was it i was going down for a person?
Pride - Don't everyone have it? Is it my pride that is making me a confused and un-decisive person on my choices in life?
Prejudice - Am I not being prejudice on someone and even on some options I have?
I watch the movie. It is good and it is definitely more touching than the old old versions. In fact, It made me reflect on myself. I have been like Lizzie. Stubborn but yet scare. Stubborn for what i want and what i think is right. Scare in some way not to make a wrong choice. But yet, she did and she regreted so much for misunderstood Darcy. As for Jane, she love the man but yet shy and not brave enough to show her emotions but yet it is only human to be shy. Her sisters and mother was the cause of ppl "misunderstanding" the beauty of her. In reality, isn't this happening? Ppl always misjudge others by their family background and of their siblings. Or ppl have higher expectation or assumption on the person due to the his/her family background and of their siblings.
I don't know what is love and I don't know when I would fine my the other half. But all i know, looks is not the issue. I am not looking for a good looking guy (as my mother always think that is what i look into). I am just looking for someone that could have a proper conversation with me. Someone who can just make me laugh with his way of speech. Someone who can just communicate with me and talk to me without me having to explain too detail and specific. 重视恋爱中语言的交流
I was away for a month (September). Went to Hong Kong to visit my sister, and went to singapore. Time was sooo rush that i don't think i had a rest. Phones were ringing, meeting up with friends, ex-collegues, ex-uni mates, ex-high school mates, ex-college mates and tuition friends and friends met via internet.
Arrive back Melbourne on Friday and started my new job on monday. Talk about the work next time.
Tonight I would like to share abt something else.
As these few days, I had a job offer to work in singapore but I was troubled whether to accept it. I always wanted to go. But yet I feel that my decision making process have been confused, with whether this is the time/trip to go or was it i was going down for a person?
Pride - Don't everyone have it? Is it my pride that is making me a confused and un-decisive person on my choices in life?
Prejudice - Am I not being prejudice on someone and even on some options I have?
I watch the movie. It is good and it is definitely more touching than the old old versions. In fact, It made me reflect on myself. I have been like Lizzie. Stubborn but yet scare. Stubborn for what i want and what i think is right. Scare in some way not to make a wrong choice. But yet, she did and she regreted so much for misunderstood Darcy. As for Jane, she love the man but yet shy and not brave enough to show her emotions but yet it is only human to be shy. Her sisters and mother was the cause of ppl "misunderstanding" the beauty of her. In reality, isn't this happening? Ppl always misjudge others by their family background and of their siblings. Or ppl have higher expectation or assumption on the person due to the his/her family background and of their siblings.
I don't know what is love and I don't know when I would fine my the other half. But all i know, looks is not the issue. I am not looking for a good looking guy (as my mother always think that is what i look into). I am just looking for someone that could have a proper conversation with me. Someone who can just make me laugh with his way of speech. Someone who can just communicate with me and talk to me without me having to explain too detail and specific. 重视恋爱中语言的交流
8.02.2005
Something I wrote couple months back.... and posting it now.
** Something I wrote couple months back at work but totally forgotten to post it.
I think I am over the edge. I think I am really burned out. The things I have to do. The expectations I have on myself. I think it is really time to just be myself. But is this what I really want?! I want my long long break. Just doing nothing holiday. Just doing the normal things I would do in weekend but for a longer period. But would that be realistic? That means quiting my job. That means no income for months. And if I am going to start school again in may/june, it isn't possible for me to do so. I need an income to pay bills and to support my education. My parents isn't supporting me. I have to pay the tuition fee. I am so in a mess. Literraly I don't know what I am doing and what I want.
What do I really want?! Many times I ask myself. I asked and asked. I want this, but with this I cannot have that. Then it comes to the point of what do I REALLY want. I want to be free from being a money slave. I hate it when I am poor. I hate it when I have no money to pay bills and have to eat instant noodles for 1 month. I hate it when I have to depend on antoher person to live my life. I hate it when I can't afford to go out shopping for the minumun things. I hate it when I have to worry for my car registration is coming up soon and whether there is money for me to pay it. I hate it when I have to live under the roof of someone elses property where I don't have the fucking right to do anything.
I guess I am once again being childish in blaming my parents for not giving me the life or childhood, or teenager hood I once think I should at least deserve for who I am and because I am their daughter, the extra responsiblities and good behaviour that I have to bear. But sad enough, it is the past and no point dwelling in it isn't it?! In that, I seek for a easy life now but yet I know I have to work my arse for it, But I am going no where. That is what is frustrating me!!!!! I am going no where. I am in a lost world.
I find myself open book person and everyone think I am happy and cheerful. But how cheerful can I be when I cried in my heart each night when I sleep? I am lonely and in need of someone to hug me to bed and to guide me and support me. I guess at the end of day, I need someone to rescue me. Rescue me from this misery. I need someone to be able to take care of me and to provide me and to work with me to achieve my little happy and blissful family. Oh god then, please tell me how do I know that person is the right one, how would I know he is the guy I would walk down the aisle with.
7.27.2005
27 July - Another day at work
Another day at work it is for me. Enjoying the beautiful view of Melbourne city on the 21st floor of the SAI building. Having someone horrible and cruel sitting near me again.... just another day i have to go pass.
Can't wait to meet up my friends in malaysia and in singapore. I miss all of you guys!!!!!!
Friends in KL, Friends from Chung Hua, Friends from College, Friends from Internet, Friends from Seremban, Friends of my cousins, Friends of my work, Friends of my Doggie Lover Groups, Friends from Uni, Friends from Australia that went back, Friends from everywhere!! ahahah
7.03.2005
A Step into a Quarter of the Century
Another day I will step into a Quater of Century category. Its a gloomy day today in melbourne, with the sky rendering into darknest even at the time of liveliness. The cold breeze of wind reminds me much more of the loneliness of winter. Yellow leaves dropping from their roots of dependency. Signs of movement is showned. Hints of a new beginning is growing.
6.30.2005
Birthday Present for myself 2005
Each year on my birthday (around that time), I would indulge myself with a big present for myself.
Year 2002, I brought myself my frist Prada. A pair of pointy prada shoes which cost about Aud300. At that time i just started working. My frist job and have a debt on hand but i was "drawn" into it.
Year 2003, I did rebonding to my hair. That too cost me AUd300. I have always wanted to have long straight hair. And i loved it!
Year 2004, my bloody first Digital Camera and also my very first camera. Its a Sony DSC- T1. AUD 700 Nice lcd screen kinda feeling. Huge increasement of birthday present ar?
Year 2005, this year i plan to buy myself.. hahahahaha A LAPTOP. Yeah. I never had a laptop and of course i am buying it not to satisfy that bloody "i never had it before" urge but for really good use in terms of academic and researching purposes. Calculatation it may cost me nearly AUD 3000. Yeah baby, its a Toshiba Tecra M3 (1.73Ghz) is the one i am looking into ..
Year 2002, I brought myself my frist Prada. A pair of pointy prada shoes which cost about Aud300. At that time i just started working. My frist job and have a debt on hand but i was "drawn" into it.
Year 2003, I did rebonding to my hair. That too cost me AUd300. I have always wanted to have long straight hair. And i loved it!
Year 2004, my bloody first Digital Camera and also my very first camera. Its a Sony DSC- T1. AUD 700 Nice lcd screen kinda feeling. Huge increasement of birthday present ar?
Year 2005, this year i plan to buy myself.. hahahahaha A LAPTOP. Yeah. I never had a laptop and of course i am buying it not to satisfy that bloody "i never had it before" urge but for really good use in terms of academic and researching purposes. Calculatation it may cost me nearly AUD 3000. Yeah baby, its a Toshiba Tecra M3 (1.73Ghz) is the one i am looking into ..
Oral Surgery of Mine ... finally done
Its done. I have finally gone through the surgery on 22nd June in a private hospital and taken my 4 wisdom teeth. So i am not that wisdom now.. a bit stupid!
And the thing is i totally forgotten to tell the doctor i would like to keep my teeth. HOW stupid i am ! oh well......
When i came out, i was nausea.. and vomited blood (dark and smelly blood) and i was burping like mad. The chinse saying.... got too much AIR/WIND.
And next i got home, i couldn't talk and was swollen the whole face and have to write to speak to my mum.
I finally got back to work on Wed and boy oh boy..... aren't i in a bad mood.
Facing BW again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and not to say......... the horrible kapala s****
And the thing is i totally forgotten to tell the doctor i would like to keep my teeth. HOW stupid i am ! oh well......
When i came out, i was nausea.. and vomited blood (dark and smelly blood) and i was burping like mad. The chinse saying.... got too much AIR/WIND.
And next i got home, i couldn't talk and was swollen the whole face and have to write to speak to my mum.
I finally got back to work on Wed and boy oh boy..... aren't i in a bad mood.
Facing BW again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and not to say......... the horrible kapala s****
6.14.2005
Crystal Dental Surgery
Crystal dental surgery was done on Friday 10 June. She went in the morning, got taken a blood test to make sure her kidney are working properly and she is fit enough for this surgery.
I pick her up at about 6ish pm. She gave me that sad eyes. Doctor says her gum very infected and have to take antibiotics. The bill in total was AUD 383.10
On Wed 7 pm i would need to bring her in again for a quick check up and a mini class on how to prevent future plaque and keeping her teeth clean. I have to say, her teeth are much clean (only one tiny place not clean well) but the stinky breath is no longer there and her teeth are much much whiter than mine! :P I am happy. Have to say eventhough it is costly but it is worth it!
As for myself, I would be going in for mine next next wednesday 22 June. Can't eat nor drink after 7 am and my sugery would be at 12.30pm. Day in day out. but was told to have a 7 days break and suffering. Mummy is coming in on 19th June.
I pick her up at about 6ish pm. She gave me that sad eyes. Doctor says her gum very infected and have to take antibiotics. The bill in total was AUD 383.10
On Wed 7 pm i would need to bring her in again for a quick check up and a mini class on how to prevent future plaque and keeping her teeth clean. I have to say, her teeth are much clean (only one tiny place not clean well) but the stinky breath is no longer there and her teeth are much much whiter than mine! :P I am happy. Have to say eventhough it is costly but it is worth it!
As for myself, I would be going in for mine next next wednesday 22 June. Can't eat nor drink after 7 am and my sugery would be at 12.30pm. Day in day out. but was told to have a 7 days break and suffering. Mummy is coming in on 19th June.
5.24.2005
Husband material or BF material
I wonder am I looking for a Husband or a lover or a companion or a boyfriend?
Sometimes i really question myself. I am in a rush to find the right one? Am i in a rush to just settle down and have someone to depend on?
Ppl keep on telling me that i am old already and i am not longer young. I shouldn't waste my youth anymore with the wrong person. AM i dwelling around in complicated relationships without any results? Or would living a life just with someone and no commitment and expectation would be better?
Sometimes i really question myself. I am in a rush to find the right one? Am i in a rush to just settle down and have someone to depend on?
Ppl keep on telling me that i am old already and i am not longer young. I shouldn't waste my youth anymore with the wrong person. AM i dwelling around in complicated relationships without any results? Or would living a life just with someone and no commitment and expectation would be better?
5.19.2005
Crystal Dental Surgery booked in for 10 June
Crystal Dental Surgery booked in for 10 June
The day before 10 June she cannot have any food after 10 pm (a little bit of water is alright). I have to bring her in between 7-9 am (10 June Friday) where the doctor would give her a full examination before putting her into anaesthetic . Then they would clean up her teeth and i would need to take her back between 5- 7 pm (once the doctor say she is alright to go)She should behaving as normal after that.
Once again, thank you to every person that donate to this cause, they are:
1. Yun Ki Lee
2. Kok Hua Lim
3. Nick and Tracy
Thank you so much really. I really appreciate the kindness you shown towards Crystal for I deeply find that it is up most touching for me as her mum and as your friend.
The day before 10 June she cannot have any food after 10 pm (a little bit of water is alright). I have to bring her in between 7-9 am (10 June Friday) where the doctor would give her a full examination before putting her into anaesthetic . Then they would clean up her teeth and i would need to take her back between 5- 7 pm (once the doctor say she is alright to go)She should behaving as normal after that.
Once again, thank you to every person that donate to this cause, they are:
1. Yun Ki Lee
2. Kok Hua Lim
3. Nick and Tracy
Thank you so much really. I really appreciate the kindness you shown towards Crystal for I deeply find that it is up most touching for me as her mum and as your friend.
5.04.2005
REVOLUTION
Wednesday 4th MAY.
Another couple of weeks is crystal birthday. 27 MAY 2005.
Another couple of weeks of continous misery at work.
Another couple of weeks of mental harrassment
Another couple of weeks of thinking, planning and making choice.
Yes, my good old statement. Figuring out what I want to do and what I really want.
As of Monday 2nd May, something at work happened. It really gave me the final blow. I have never been so determine to sit my ass down and to think hard and to find my inner six sense. My biggest decision has made. To not care that much of what others think and opinion, specially my mother. I love her and appreciate her suggestions but I think if I continue to do so, I think I will not be happy or to achieve what I want or what I have set my goals to be.
No monthly income is hard but no monthly happiness is even harder.
No monthly income is hard but no monthly enjoyment of life is even harder.
No Monthly income is hard but no realisation of what career path you really want is even more idiotic
No Monthly income is hard but no self respect for yourself is even more stupid.
Yes, that’s right. What do I grace yong seek for?!
I use to think it was to find a nice husband, someone who loves me and who can take care of me would be the solution. All I want is to be someones wife. Hahaha no one believe me. To work and to be a wife. I don't expect to be a CEO of a multinational company. I am a person that wants my own business in future (preferable in the Animal sector). Yes, that’s my goal. That’s my future goal.
SO now grace yong, you are only 25 ! So young right?! What have u got to lose?!
Wake up from being indecisive. Be strong and move on !
Kindest Regards,Grace Yong 杨 蕙 祯
Another couple of weeks is crystal birthday. 27 MAY 2005.
Another couple of weeks of continous misery at work.
Another couple of weeks of mental harrassment
Another couple of weeks of thinking, planning and making choice.
Yes, my good old statement. Figuring out what I want to do and what I really want.
As of Monday 2nd May, something at work happened. It really gave me the final blow. I have never been so determine to sit my ass down and to think hard and to find my inner six sense. My biggest decision has made. To not care that much of what others think and opinion, specially my mother. I love her and appreciate her suggestions but I think if I continue to do so, I think I will not be happy or to achieve what I want or what I have set my goals to be.
No monthly income is hard but no monthly happiness is even harder.
No monthly income is hard but no monthly enjoyment of life is even harder.
No Monthly income is hard but no realisation of what career path you really want is even more idiotic
No Monthly income is hard but no self respect for yourself is even more stupid.
Yes, that’s right. What do I grace yong seek for?!
I use to think it was to find a nice husband, someone who loves me and who can take care of me would be the solution. All I want is to be someones wife. Hahaha no one believe me. To work and to be a wife. I don't expect to be a CEO of a multinational company. I am a person that wants my own business in future (preferable in the Animal sector). Yes, that’s my goal. That’s my future goal.
SO now grace yong, you are only 25 ! So young right?! What have u got to lose?!
Wake up from being indecisive. Be strong and move on !
Kindest Regards,Grace Yong 杨 蕙 祯
4.05.2005
Tues 5 April 05
One chooses what one can be fulfilled with and then one will not be depressed if they choose carefully
One needs to see who is beyond the space infront of them and then one is not lonely
Life is no more complicated than a feather floating in the air and then crazy is merely a temporal gust of wind
And the mess disappears when the wind dies down and then this wonderful weirdness is what we yearn
Written by : Yunki Lee
One needs to see who is beyond the space infront of them and then one is not lonely
Life is no more complicated than a feather floating in the air and then crazy is merely a temporal gust of wind
And the mess disappears when the wind dies down and then this wonderful weirdness is what we yearn
Written by : Yunki Lee
3.16.2005
Wed 16 March 05
Got my nails done finally. French Manicure cost me AUD 35. No massage also! Celaka. Just shape + cuticles cleaning + paint + buff and tat cost me $35. Oh well, I needed one manicure today. Just want to look pretty for quite a long time. Yeah, i am overweight, ugly gal who has the biggest bum and thigh and tummy too!!! oh yeah baby... i am fat!! so what?! life goes on...i got my manicure!! yippeeee... nice nice fingers now.... gesh wonder whether having manicure would get me a hubby! ahahhahahahaha
3.04.2005
Friday 4 March 2005 4.50 pm this is written
i am weird
and messed up in the brains
i am crazy
and have a life more complicated than the brains
i am lonely
and have just around only Crystal in my life
i am depress
and have just only Crystal to fulfill my life
Written by Gracey 4th March 2005
and messed up in the brains
i am crazy
and have a life more complicated than the brains
i am lonely
and have just around only Crystal in my life
i am depress
and have just only Crystal to fulfill my life
Written by Gracey 4th March 2005
3.02.2005
A Poem I wrote today 2nd March 05
In Heart We Are Bond
How I wish the clock runs quicker with time
For you would appear in my mind and heart numerous times
How I wish to listen to you voice
For the feelings you have are blended into your voice
In life we are split apart
But in heart we are bond into one
Experiencing the pain of being apart
But to make us only stronger as one
Lets give each other more time
To get to know each other better with time
Lets celebrate the passion we have for each other
To let us be grateful for we have found each other.
Written by Gracey 2nd March 2005
How I wish the clock runs quicker with time
For you would appear in my mind and heart numerous times
How I wish to listen to you voice
For the feelings you have are blended into your voice
In life we are split apart
But in heart we are bond into one
Experiencing the pain of being apart
But to make us only stronger as one
Lets give each other more time
To get to know each other better with time
Lets celebrate the passion we have for each other
To let us be grateful for we have found each other.
Written by Gracey 2nd March 2005
3.01.2005
My horoscope I read from a friend..
CANCER WOMAN (22 June -23 July)
* Eastern Japanese Horoscope - Please follow given DATE for accuracy.
When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, Shy and politetrembling to be near you. Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to bewith you all the times. She will try to go home with you after work, orhave every lunch with you. It is O.K. if you like her too, but if is is notthe case, you will feel very uncomfortable.
She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows shewill be very hurt. In nature she is a shy type, except she has beeninfluenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, so ifyou like her then you better be the one who start first. She will notaccept her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first.
She is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can befunny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. Other peoplemay think of her as "Over-acting", or "Over-reacting".
When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. Sheloves money, and thinks of having "Money" as "happy", not as "God". Shewill not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she willhelp you make money, save money. She is not an extravagant person andsometimes will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift.
She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. Cancer woman alsoinfluenced by the "moon", so under the moon light she will be fascinatingwoman.
She has a constant fear for many things. She fear of not being smartenough, not pretty enough. Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy.Assuring her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times aday.
She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting oldor broken junks. She sees that everything are useful to her. She will finda way to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type,butpossessive.
The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love onewith no limit. Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forgetit. She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you arguewith her, she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe hertears and start clean up her apartment normally.
She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps ofthe way. If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if sheis your mother in law, you are in pain. Not to worry, this type of motherin law will not let her own daughter being an "Old mate".
She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like manywomen, but she always wait and want to take care of you. If you argue withher and disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for longO.K. This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it.
The Cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are "Work" and "Love". Shecan be live in a dusty house, but she can not live in that same house withno Love.
* Eastern Japanese Horoscope - Please follow given DATE for accuracy.
When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, Shy and politetrembling to be near you. Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to bewith you all the times. She will try to go home with you after work, orhave every lunch with you. It is O.K. if you like her too, but if is is notthe case, you will feel very uncomfortable.
She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows shewill be very hurt. In nature she is a shy type, except she has beeninfluenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, so ifyou like her then you better be the one who start first. She will notaccept her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first.
She is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can befunny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. Other peoplemay think of her as "Over-acting", or "Over-reacting".
When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. Sheloves money, and thinks of having "Money" as "happy", not as "God". Shewill not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she willhelp you make money, save money. She is not an extravagant person andsometimes will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift.
She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. Cancer woman alsoinfluenced by the "moon", so under the moon light she will be fascinatingwoman.
She has a constant fear for many things. She fear of not being smartenough, not pretty enough. Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy.Assuring her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times aday.
She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting oldor broken junks. She sees that everything are useful to her. She will finda way to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type,butpossessive.
The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love onewith no limit. Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forgetit. She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you arguewith her, she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe hertears and start clean up her apartment normally.
She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps ofthe way. If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if sheis your mother in law, you are in pain. Not to worry, this type of motherin law will not let her own daughter being an "Old mate".
She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like manywomen, but she always wait and want to take care of you. If you argue withher and disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for longO.K. This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it.
The Cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are "Work" and "Love". Shecan be live in a dusty house, but she can not live in that same house withno Love.
2.28.2005
A Poem written Thu 10/28/2004 4:11 PM
Waiting for a Picture of yours is nothing but torture
Time has pass where there is nothing more torturing
As the wind blows across my face
I would really like to see your sweet face
Eventhough miles we are apart
You word to me is the thing that keep us not being apart
Written by Gracey 28 October 2004
Time has pass where there is nothing more torturing
As the wind blows across my face
I would really like to see your sweet face
Eventhough miles we are apart
You word to me is the thing that keep us not being apart
Written by Gracey 28 October 2004
My weekend
Friday night - went out with Sene Li ( who is going to give birth in 3 weeks time) had dinner with her, and she told me how she choose her husband and how god helped her and how special her encounter with her hubby, Min-Chul and how they work things out with both their so different background. As of one is Korean and another is Malaysian. i felt so touched that the way god guided them together. Can't wait to hear from Min-Chul how god guided him. After dinner with Sene Li, went out have drinks with another friend Ei Leen (with Sene Li) together. Had this Korean Wine.... and yeah i was tipsy. hahahahaha was talking crap when i got home. But yeah.. home alone. cousin was not at home, but thank god crystal was there. and watch Bachelor Party (starting Tom Hanks in the 80s). It was funny...... and touched. hahaha knock out by 1 am.
Saturday - Woke up around 1ish i think. Had maggi mee, went online for a while, did a bit of house chores, shower, and went out dinner with Janice. Went to Foostcray and order Lemon Grass Chicken and a dish of vege. Drove around, put petrol in my car and went home. Wanted to pick up a friend for his flight was at 1.10 am arriving but by the time 12.30 am .. which i strongly tried to be awake, i could not defeat the Sleeping Monster. I slept!! hahahaha Friend rang me at 2 am to tell me Hey i am here.. and obviously he had to catch the cab !! hahaha :P
Sunday - Met up with my friend. Lunch. Walk around the city and Yahoo.... he got me my SAMSUNG 710N 17" LCD Monitor. Went home and install it . I was sooo happy.... ehheheeheheh couldn't stop smiling for the rest of the afternoon. Later ... took crystal for a walk and then went safeway to get my groceries and then dinner.. .and then went home watch CSI ..... and then knock out man... by 11 am.... i think i doze off well by midnight.
Thats it.. my tiring weekend again. yayayayayaya i am still sleeeeeepy!!!!!!
Saturday - Woke up around 1ish i think. Had maggi mee, went online for a while, did a bit of house chores, shower, and went out dinner with Janice. Went to Foostcray and order Lemon Grass Chicken and a dish of vege. Drove around, put petrol in my car and went home. Wanted to pick up a friend for his flight was at 1.10 am arriving but by the time 12.30 am .. which i strongly tried to be awake, i could not defeat the Sleeping Monster. I slept!! hahahaha Friend rang me at 2 am to tell me Hey i am here.. and obviously he had to catch the cab !! hahaha :P
Sunday - Met up with my friend. Lunch. Walk around the city and Yahoo.... he got me my SAMSUNG 710N 17" LCD Monitor. Went home and install it . I was sooo happy.... ehheheeheheh couldn't stop smiling for the rest of the afternoon. Later ... took crystal for a walk and then went safeway to get my groceries and then dinner.. .and then went home watch CSI ..... and then knock out man... by 11 am.... i think i doze off well by midnight.
Thats it.. my tiring weekend again. yayayayayaya i am still sleeeeeepy!!!!!!
2.25.2005
2.23.2005
Tues 22 Feb
My ex, Freddy is married to his beautiful wife Junko. I am happy for him for he is not just my ex bf but a brother and a friend to me. Junko just email me their wedding pictures and as i went through them, of course, i did stop and think for a while, what would it be like if i was the bride?! Would I be as happy as her? Would I love him so much as she would? We would never know. He lives in the uptown place, have a dog and drive a volvo S60 in Tokyo. Material points and living status definitley he worked very very hard to achieve. I would definitely be one of the best person to understand what he went through. Besides his mum and me, no one ever really knew and care in year 1999.
I was young. Rebelious. Playful. He was more mature and steady and were like a elder brother to me. But indeed, we are meant to meet, to love each other before but not to walk the marriage path. I do wish them all the best, have kids soon and my wishes and blessing are always there for them. Weird, I am not regreting, not sad but happy for Freddy. He deserve a good wife. A wife that would understand him, a wife that would stand by him and definitley a wife that love him for who he really is and not what he has.
To that, i gave myself a quick thought. Am i rushing to get married because alot of my friends are? Seeing them in wedding gowns, in that happy look being someone's wife, am i wanting to be someone's wife that badly? What about my career? what about my ambition? Really, i don't think i never really had any ambition. I just wanted to be someone who is known by an industry. Where head hunters would head hunt me. Where my salary is in the 6 figure bracket. Thats all. And be a mother and a wife. A perfect mother and wife.
In the morning, i would like to make breakfast and have breakfast with my hubby. He go to work, i would do my little stuff, prepare my dinner meals, go to my little shop that i open or help my hubby business and then do my beauty stuff sometimes and then go home cook dinner/bake cake. And night, have a nice walk with my hubby with our children, catch a movie or go to some nice pubs/hotel for a drinks. Seeing my hubby eating my cakes makes me so happy and warmth. Weekends, go shopping and have catch up with my friends, where hubby do his own thing and enjoy his own little hobbies. Visit my parents often. Travel overseas once a year.
Funny, some ppl say, are you sure this is what you want? when u climb the career ladder would u willing to drop everything? when u are well known will u want to just throw that away? As of my trip to msia, one of my collegues mention this to me, Grace, what do u want?! As a frank opinion, for woman if u too career driven your husband will feel tough sometimes. Of course not everyone the case, but only u know lor...
Deep in my heart, I know I am a homey person. I know I want to be the a good mother , specially from my encounter with Crystal, I know I am very in to it . As of my previous ex partners, my tolerance level and my "housewife" look have always been in-place. So i don't think I am really in a rush to get marry. I think I have always like to be a housewife. But yet, I am also a person with character. A person who likes to achieve something , to feel that I have achieve something in my life. I keep on telling ppl, i want to achieve the feeling of Satisfaction with my achievement!! But everyone ask me back, what is ur Satisfaction of Achievement? What is you want to achieve?
As of I was thinking while walking Crystal, what is the Achievement I am striving for in australia?? What do i want? Why i am still here? Is it really that i enjoy the culture and the living here that much? Is the work I am doing now getting me where i want to be? Am i doing all this to prove to my family I am unique? Am i doing all this so that my parents can tell others how well Gracey is doing? Or Am i doing this to proof to myself that the vision i see is the better choice? Oh yeah.. the vision !! Gracey Little Vision. A vision that the whole world think was just purely of "the bf", the vision that ppl take it as an excuse, an lie. Indeed, it was an insult to me! Indded now, the ppl still thinks the same. I didn't make the decision to be in Australia because of my ex bf, Kevin. I know I didn't. But why didn't my family believe me?!
It has nearly been 2 years since we broke up. He is having his 3rd gf now. But i am still in Melbourne alone! So ?? Do i longer need to proof to my family my reason of being in Melbourne is not because of him but because of this vision that i think would make me a better, a stronger, a more independent person and with a better career experience and also a better people relationship person.
I am feeling more homesick than i ever had in the last 6 years. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? You never know. There is always the other side of choice as of the choices I made till today, I learnt, there is never the right choice nor the wrong choice.
I am who I am
I couldn’t change the fact
I know who I shall be
I must learn to fulfill that
Making goals are easy
Achieving them are hard
Getting them are easy.
As long as I have the heart.
It is all in the mind and heart
As long as your mind
Be with your heart
Peace will be in your mind.
Written by : Grace Yong 18-06-2001
These part of my peom have been my support for these years and i do wish to share with everyone, As long as your mind be with your heart, peace will be in your mind.
I was young. Rebelious. Playful. He was more mature and steady and were like a elder brother to me. But indeed, we are meant to meet, to love each other before but not to walk the marriage path. I do wish them all the best, have kids soon and my wishes and blessing are always there for them. Weird, I am not regreting, not sad but happy for Freddy. He deserve a good wife. A wife that would understand him, a wife that would stand by him and definitley a wife that love him for who he really is and not what he has.
To that, i gave myself a quick thought. Am i rushing to get married because alot of my friends are? Seeing them in wedding gowns, in that happy look being someone's wife, am i wanting to be someone's wife that badly? What about my career? what about my ambition? Really, i don't think i never really had any ambition. I just wanted to be someone who is known by an industry. Where head hunters would head hunt me. Where my salary is in the 6 figure bracket. Thats all. And be a mother and a wife. A perfect mother and wife.
In the morning, i would like to make breakfast and have breakfast with my hubby. He go to work, i would do my little stuff, prepare my dinner meals, go to my little shop that i open or help my hubby business and then do my beauty stuff sometimes and then go home cook dinner/bake cake. And night, have a nice walk with my hubby with our children, catch a movie or go to some nice pubs/hotel for a drinks. Seeing my hubby eating my cakes makes me so happy and warmth. Weekends, go shopping and have catch up with my friends, where hubby do his own thing and enjoy his own little hobbies. Visit my parents often. Travel overseas once a year.
Funny, some ppl say, are you sure this is what you want? when u climb the career ladder would u willing to drop everything? when u are well known will u want to just throw that away? As of my trip to msia, one of my collegues mention this to me, Grace, what do u want?! As a frank opinion, for woman if u too career driven your husband will feel tough sometimes. Of course not everyone the case, but only u know lor...
Deep in my heart, I know I am a homey person. I know I want to be the a good mother , specially from my encounter with Crystal, I know I am very in to it . As of my previous ex partners, my tolerance level and my "housewife" look have always been in-place. So i don't think I am really in a rush to get marry. I think I have always like to be a housewife. But yet, I am also a person with character. A person who likes to achieve something , to feel that I have achieve something in my life. I keep on telling ppl, i want to achieve the feeling of Satisfaction with my achievement!! But everyone ask me back, what is ur Satisfaction of Achievement? What is you want to achieve?
As of I was thinking while walking Crystal, what is the Achievement I am striving for in australia?? What do i want? Why i am still here? Is it really that i enjoy the culture and the living here that much? Is the work I am doing now getting me where i want to be? Am i doing all this to prove to my family I am unique? Am i doing all this so that my parents can tell others how well Gracey is doing? Or Am i doing this to proof to myself that the vision i see is the better choice? Oh yeah.. the vision !! Gracey Little Vision. A vision that the whole world think was just purely of "the bf", the vision that ppl take it as an excuse, an lie. Indeed, it was an insult to me! Indded now, the ppl still thinks the same. I didn't make the decision to be in Australia because of my ex bf, Kevin. I know I didn't. But why didn't my family believe me?!
It has nearly been 2 years since we broke up. He is having his 3rd gf now. But i am still in Melbourne alone! So ?? Do i longer need to proof to my family my reason of being in Melbourne is not because of him but because of this vision that i think would make me a better, a stronger, a more independent person and with a better career experience and also a better people relationship person.
I am feeling more homesick than i ever had in the last 6 years. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? You never know. There is always the other side of choice as of the choices I made till today, I learnt, there is never the right choice nor the wrong choice.
I am who I am
I couldn’t change the fact
I know who I shall be
I must learn to fulfill that
Making goals are easy
Achieving them are hard
Getting them are easy.
As long as I have the heart.
It is all in the mind and heart
As long as your mind
Be with your heart
Peace will be in your mind.
Written by : Grace Yong 18-06-2001
These part of my peom have been my support for these years and i do wish to share with everyone, As long as your mind be with your heart, peace will be in your mind.
2.22.2005
1 week as of the Horror
pretty much this is the update from last mon till this mon. I have been a zombie. Didn't sleep till god knows when. Every night i was like a wide awake owl. Every single sound would startled me up. My cousin came back on Friday. I guess it did make a difference. I think I did sleep that night for 6 nights in a roll without sleeping.
The weekends were pretty much the normal. Had lunch and dinners with friends due to their sister in law, sisters came to Melbourne to study.
Monday normal day at work. I just find the whole week tiring. Busy and not enough sleep. I really wish i could gain back the energetic me really soon or else i would not be meeting up with my work target. OH gosh...... why am i in australia where i could be someone else wife?? *wink wink*
The weekends were pretty much the normal. Had lunch and dinners with friends due to their sister in law, sisters came to Melbourne to study.
Monday normal day at work. I just find the whole week tiring. Busy and not enough sleep. I really wish i could gain back the energetic me really soon or else i would not be meeting up with my work target. OH gosh...... why am i in australia where i could be someone else wife?? *wink wink*
2.14.2005
MY HomeComing Disaster
My Malaysia Trip back this year was indeed fantastic. I had a great time visiting my fellow collegues and friends both in KL and Singapore. Indeed it is too short. Just 2 weeks.
However, when I arrive back to Melbourne on Sat 12.12.05, around 11pm I step back into my apartment, I found my house got broke in..... I was shocked...... call police... But police is off duty at 11 pm and can only come in the morning… ok.. Got no choice but to wait…. Rang my family… told them about it …. Rang insurance…rang mobile phone company...my friend say he would company me the whole night but middle of the morning 3 am he left.. and i woke up and couldn't find him.. i was so scared... i break down.. i cried and cried ... for so long.... and tried calling many friends but no one care.. even i ask them to come over to company they give me all stupid reason... was so fed up..(fair enough it was 4ish AM but hey, if my friend rang me and crying there, even I didn't have a car I would take a cab and go but yet said, everyone is different and think differently) and at last call my option.. i didn't wanted to call them because my gf is pregnant...but i got no choice.. well the husband is also my friend. so the husband came over and company me.. till the sunday morning the police came.
The Police, Senior Constable Daniel Thorne … still can remember his name out of my mind, took some pictures, walk around, write something on and say that’s about it and left around 10ish. Had a woo haa with my family members about getting the door glass fixed. One of them and my mum wanted me to wait till I get hold of the body corporate person in charge and the other one ask me to fixed it first and if the body corporate wouldn't pay it for it then only talk about it later. Obviously, I would want to fix it on Sunday but by the time I could get the body corporate person would be Monday, that means I wouldn't have to sleep on Sunday and to sleep in fear. All because of money!! Because if I fixed it first, the body corporate may not take it …. All those stupid stuff… oh well, anyway conclusion I got it fixed. The person came around 1 pm and got it done in about 1 hr time and he would bill my body corporate due to it would be part of the Building Insurance policy (as was suggested by the Obrien Glass person).
By the time the person left, I was really really tired and drain. Manage to get a nap, and it was warm my room and woke up, shower, start to unpack my luggage, clean the dinning room.. Get on with my life…what u expect, it was my choice to be in Melbourne, and to live in that apartment, if only I was rich enough to rent a better place… ahhaha .. Oh well, went out take away dinner… at that time I was feeling sick and it would be my first proper meal since my last meal taken in the air plane. I think I got the fever as of I haven't been sleeping well and all this whoo haa really drain me. Slept about 9 pm.
Gesh… and I wanted to write about my Holiday trip.. Shall write it soon when I am back to my happy self.
However, when I arrive back to Melbourne on Sat 12.12.05, around 11pm I step back into my apartment, I found my house got broke in..... I was shocked...... call police... But police is off duty at 11 pm and can only come in the morning… ok.. Got no choice but to wait…. Rang my family… told them about it …. Rang insurance…rang mobile phone company...my friend say he would company me the whole night but middle of the morning 3 am he left.. and i woke up and couldn't find him.. i was so scared... i break down.. i cried and cried ... for so long.... and tried calling many friends but no one care.. even i ask them to come over to company they give me all stupid reason... was so fed up..(fair enough it was 4ish AM but hey, if my friend rang me and crying there, even I didn't have a car I would take a cab and go but yet said, everyone is different and think differently) and at last call my option.. i didn't wanted to call them because my gf is pregnant...but i got no choice.. well the husband is also my friend. so the husband came over and company me.. till the sunday morning the police came.
The Police, Senior Constable Daniel Thorne … still can remember his name out of my mind, took some pictures, walk around, write something on and say that’s about it and left around 10ish. Had a woo haa with my family members about getting the door glass fixed. One of them and my mum wanted me to wait till I get hold of the body corporate person in charge and the other one ask me to fixed it first and if the body corporate wouldn't pay it for it then only talk about it later. Obviously, I would want to fix it on Sunday but by the time I could get the body corporate person would be Monday, that means I wouldn't have to sleep on Sunday and to sleep in fear. All because of money!! Because if I fixed it first, the body corporate may not take it …. All those stupid stuff… oh well, anyway conclusion I got it fixed. The person came around 1 pm and got it done in about 1 hr time and he would bill my body corporate due to it would be part of the Building Insurance policy (as was suggested by the Obrien Glass person).
By the time the person left, I was really really tired and drain. Manage to get a nap, and it was warm my room and woke up, shower, start to unpack my luggage, clean the dinning room.. Get on with my life…what u expect, it was my choice to be in Melbourne, and to live in that apartment, if only I was rich enough to rent a better place… ahhaha .. Oh well, went out take away dinner… at that time I was feeling sick and it would be my first proper meal since my last meal taken in the air plane. I think I got the fever as of I haven't been sleeping well and all this whoo haa really drain me. Slept about 9 pm.
Gesh… and I wanted to write about my Holiday trip.. Shall write it soon when I am back to my happy self.
1.27.2005
Wednesday 26-1-05
Australia National Day. Public Holiday and it was 39 degrees. It was hot!!!! Hot as chili, Hot as fire. Woke up at about 12pm.. can't believe i could hang on till that time. Woke up. Went online *how predictable isn't it* Chatted till nearly 5 pm. hahahhaha yeah, how fantastic the afternoon went in that heat and staring at the monitor :P
Took crystal for a walk and bath her... of course bath myself too. did some house chores and went back online to meet *him*. Surprisingly he was still there. ahhaha Chat for a while, went an grab dinner and i was stuffed. So full! Went to watch my dvd, Princes and Me. Sooo touching and went zzzz....... soooo hot, couldn't sleep till at least 4 am!!!!
Boy oh Boy, tomorrow morning would definitely be a crazy one for me
Took crystal for a walk and bath her... of course bath myself too. did some house chores and went back online to meet *him*. Surprisingly he was still there. ahhaha Chat for a while, went an grab dinner and i was stuffed. So full! Went to watch my dvd, Princes and Me. Sooo touching and went zzzz....... soooo hot, couldn't sleep till at least 4 am!!!!
Boy oh Boy, tomorrow morning would definitely be a crazy one for me
1.25.2005
Tueday 25th Jan
In another couple days, I will heading back to Malaysia. My good old Malaysia. However, would be going down to Singapore the next day of arrival. Would be in Singapore for couple of days because I really wanted to see how Singapore is. Eventhough was told that there isn't much. But there is a strong urge from me to go singapore this time. I really want to see for myseld how orchard road is. How modernised n how internatiolised is the country.
RUshing back to Seremban because my cousin is leaving on a Thursday morning so i need to be back on a Wednesday at least. Phew...... and would be heading down to KL on Friday 4th Feb and stay there for a couple of day and then be a good girl and spend time with my family and my Seremban friends.
Indeed it is tooo short for only 2 weeks trip. There is so much to do and so many catch ups to make. Not to say, to meet him at last for I wish so much to see ....... *wink wink*
RUshing back to Seremban because my cousin is leaving on a Thursday morning so i need to be back on a Wednesday at least. Phew...... and would be heading down to KL on Friday 4th Feb and stay there for a couple of day and then be a good girl and spend time with my family and my Seremban friends.
Indeed it is tooo short for only 2 weeks trip. There is so much to do and so many catch ups to make. Not to say, to meet him at last for I wish so much to see ....... *wink wink*
The recovery week
Indeed it is the recovery week.
My tummy felt weird. I nearly caught the Flu. Work loads was so much. I had to make so many calls that i got a sore throat. I was like a little sick bird.
The weenkend was kidna relaxing. All I did was just eat, sleep, did house chores. Simple but content with it.
Really contented and can't believe how good it is to be at home just doing nothing ~
My tummy felt weird. I nearly caught the Flu. Work loads was so much. I had to make so many calls that i got a sore throat. I was like a little sick bird.
The weenkend was kidna relaxing. All I did was just eat, sleep, did house chores. Simple but content with it.
Really contented and can't believe how good it is to be at home just doing nothing ~
The Indonesia Week 8th till 15th JAN
I went to Medan Indonesia for a friends wedding. The flight was 8 hours from Melbourne to KLIA airport then waited in KLIA for a 4 hours transit. AND yeah.. a delay of 1.5 hours. So in total i waited 6 hours (due to the plane took it own sweet time to depart). Reached Medan finally! It was hot. The immigration system is so different.
Stayed at the friends house which was in the mist of renovation and finishing. Yeah, live with dust and noise and dirtiness everyday of the trip. Every morning woulkd wake up around 9ish am and wait for everyone to have their bath and get ready. go for lunch around 12ish pm and then mostly would head to the best shopping mall, Sun Plaza. One day we skip sun plaza and went to the brides hometown. One day I went to do my hair (colouring) and it took me 6 hours due to the hair dresser had a problem with one of its curling machines and i was waiting for him to trim my hair before the 2nd colouring can go in .... something along that line. One day I went to get some jewellery and did some shopping at last.
Got back on Sunday and boy oh boy, was i in the jetlag situation.
Seriously and to summarize, it wasn't a good trip. My tummy felt crazy and I didn't enjoy myself. But do have to say one thing, I expenrience the culture of Indonesian. How it is like and what the place is. For that I am glad I made a trip to indonesia. Europe, do not worry, I would come by soon....... =)
Stayed at the friends house which was in the mist of renovation and finishing. Yeah, live with dust and noise and dirtiness everyday of the trip. Every morning woulkd wake up around 9ish am and wait for everyone to have their bath and get ready. go for lunch around 12ish pm and then mostly would head to the best shopping mall, Sun Plaza. One day we skip sun plaza and went to the brides hometown. One day I went to do my hair (colouring) and it took me 6 hours due to the hair dresser had a problem with one of its curling machines and i was waiting for him to trim my hair before the 2nd colouring can go in .... something along that line. One day I went to get some jewellery and did some shopping at last.
Got back on Sunday and boy oh boy, was i in the jetlag situation.
Seriously and to summarize, it wasn't a good trip. My tummy felt crazy and I didn't enjoy myself. But do have to say one thing, I expenrience the culture of Indonesian. How it is like and what the place is. For that I am glad I made a trip to indonesia. Europe, do not worry, I would come by soon....... =)
1.07.2005
Lets jump to Friday 7th
I am going to take the 12.50 am flight tonight , well actually it is the SAT 8th, come on... its the morning alright.... i am going to somewhere........ somewhere far away from Melbourne... .somewhere nice and warm... yup.... good old malaysia.......... going there for what? hahahaha it shall be told when i am back in 1 weeks time. So ladies and gentleman..... if you do want to call me, please let it be important or else i would have to cope the roaming charges.
SMS me good enough la..... of course if you miss me dearly.. then call me la.....
Adiossssssssssssssssssss
SMS me good enough la..... of course if you miss me dearly.. then call me la.....
Adiossssssssssssssssssss
1.06.2005
Tues - Wed 5 Jan 05
Lazy one day didn't write la.. .because i was so busy with work and my period pain really make me go crazy only.. pain until i can't sleep.. pain until i can't work.. but yet got a lot of work and have to try to meet the deadline... jialat........
ok leh.. today my blog would be written with a lot of SLANG..why? don't know.. feel like it.. idon't want to miss out in my asia slang ma.. hahahahah because i realise my cantonese have gone worse because lately all i speak is english and mandarin......
anyway, i got home on tues about 4ish pm because period pain as i mention earlier, sleep and eat something and rest again. wed, work until nearly 7 pm (no choice, have to work back the hours) and by the time got home n have dinner and did some cleaning up work it was nearly midnight and go zzz la.....
I will be soon going to Medan.... to attend a mates wedding... and yeah..thats right, the air fare cost me AUD 1500 ~!~~~~~
ok leh.. today my blog would be written with a lot of SLANG..why? don't know.. feel like it.. idon't want to miss out in my asia slang ma.. hahahahah because i realise my cantonese have gone worse because lately all i speak is english and mandarin......
anyway, i got home on tues about 4ish pm because period pain as i mention earlier, sleep and eat something and rest again. wed, work until nearly 7 pm (no choice, have to work back the hours) and by the time got home n have dinner and did some cleaning up work it was nearly midnight and go zzz la.....
I will be soon going to Medan.... to attend a mates wedding... and yeah..thats right, the air fare cost me AUD 1500 ~!~~~~~
1.04.2005
Friday - Monday 3rd Jan
Friday, new year eve. Left work at 4.30 pm, yeah why so late right?!! Because my boss wants us to stay back till so late for he himself got nothing to do but to surf the net and ask us to stay back!!!! ARghhhhhhhhhhhh oh well, better 4.30pm than 6pm. Rush home, hoping to get my nails done, but once again, closeD!!!! So had my shower and went to Truc&Trungs place for the bbq.
Brought crystal along. Of course, wouldn't let her be home alone for New Year !! The normal, bbq eating, drinking, count down, wish everyone and go to sleep. Not as if i would like to be cruel, but i feel so old. There were a few young girls around age 20-22, and they were all up and going, drinking like fishes and eventually doing Karoke. Oh yeah, went to bed at 4 am and couldn't sleep due to 3 girls chatting. Am i really that old??!
New Year 1 Jan - had new year lunch at Sene Li's house where there was a Malaysian Cuisine. Love it. met an uncle. Uncle Onn I think it is spell. He is really funny. An auditor and a Magician.
Got home around 5ish pm, had a quick nap and then went to Rachels house for dinner, the Vietnamese Wrap Roll thingy. Got home, was dead tired and slept around 11 pm. You bet ya!
Sunday - Woke up, stomach didn't feel good at all. Went to Vic Market and brought some chicken drumsticks and a pork bone. Boil some soup to drink and gave the pork bone to Crystal. Later on, had nap again. and then Trucie and Van came over, i was suppose to have dinner with them (Thai Taste) but i was not feeling that well. Newyas, they wanted to drop in to visit me. Oh well, it was suppose to be a dinner of 8 but all drop out and i felt , i should go and i just ask them not to order spicy food. So we went, and then came back and the girls wanted to go out to drink. SO we went to the city for a drink. Got home aroudn 2 am . Girls had instant noodles and left and so did i crashed out in my bed.
Monday - woke up, went down to Keysborough for Yum Cha!! it was at least 1/2 hr drive. hahaha. Hang around, got home, have a NAP again !! I loveeeeeeee the NAPS. Suppose to have dinner at 7 pm with a girl friend but stomach not feeling well, so cancel on her (feeling quilty a bit though, but hey i think my P's are coming mar... stomach cramps!!! ) Order pizza delivery, have it, watch a dvd, and sleep! Celaka, can't sleep. eventhough raining also can't sleep, damm sui right!!!! And crystal vomit this morning. Also don't know why, i think she must have eaten something on the floor where she shouldn't have or ... or ... gesh, better ring a vet now!
Brought crystal along. Of course, wouldn't let her be home alone for New Year !! The normal, bbq eating, drinking, count down, wish everyone and go to sleep. Not as if i would like to be cruel, but i feel so old. There were a few young girls around age 20-22, and they were all up and going, drinking like fishes and eventually doing Karoke. Oh yeah, went to bed at 4 am and couldn't sleep due to 3 girls chatting. Am i really that old??!
New Year 1 Jan - had new year lunch at Sene Li's house where there was a Malaysian Cuisine. Love it. met an uncle. Uncle Onn I think it is spell. He is really funny. An auditor and a Magician.
Got home around 5ish pm, had a quick nap and then went to Rachels house for dinner, the Vietnamese Wrap Roll thingy. Got home, was dead tired and slept around 11 pm. You bet ya!
Sunday - Woke up, stomach didn't feel good at all. Went to Vic Market and brought some chicken drumsticks and a pork bone. Boil some soup to drink and gave the pork bone to Crystal. Later on, had nap again. and then Trucie and Van came over, i was suppose to have dinner with them (Thai Taste) but i was not feeling that well. Newyas, they wanted to drop in to visit me. Oh well, it was suppose to be a dinner of 8 but all drop out and i felt , i should go and i just ask them not to order spicy food. So we went, and then came back and the girls wanted to go out to drink. SO we went to the city for a drink. Got home aroudn 2 am . Girls had instant noodles and left and so did i crashed out in my bed.
Monday - woke up, went down to Keysborough for Yum Cha!! it was at least 1/2 hr drive. hahaha. Hang around, got home, have a NAP again !! I loveeeeeeee the NAPS. Suppose to have dinner at 7 pm with a girl friend but stomach not feeling well, so cancel on her (feeling quilty a bit though, but hey i think my P's are coming mar... stomach cramps!!! ) Order pizza delivery, have it, watch a dvd, and sleep! Celaka, can't sleep. eventhough raining also can't sleep, damm sui right!!!! And crystal vomit this morning. Also don't know why, i think she must have eaten something on the floor where she shouldn't have or ... or ... gesh, better ring a vet now!
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