Waiting for a Picture of yours is nothing but torture
Time has pass where there is nothing more torturing
As the wind blows across my face
I would really like to see your sweet face
Eventhough miles we are apart
You word to me is the thing that keep us not being apart
Written by Gracey 28 October 2004
2.28.2005
My weekend
Friday night - went out with Sene Li ( who is going to give birth in 3 weeks time) had dinner with her, and she told me how she choose her husband and how god helped her and how special her encounter with her hubby, Min-Chul and how they work things out with both their so different background. As of one is Korean and another is Malaysian. i felt so touched that the way god guided them together. Can't wait to hear from Min-Chul how god guided him. After dinner with Sene Li, went out have drinks with another friend Ei Leen (with Sene Li) together. Had this Korean Wine.... and yeah i was tipsy. hahahahaha was talking crap when i got home. But yeah.. home alone. cousin was not at home, but thank god crystal was there. and watch Bachelor Party (starting Tom Hanks in the 80s). It was funny...... and touched. hahaha knock out by 1 am.
Saturday - Woke up around 1ish i think. Had maggi mee, went online for a while, did a bit of house chores, shower, and went out dinner with Janice. Went to Foostcray and order Lemon Grass Chicken and a dish of vege. Drove around, put petrol in my car and went home. Wanted to pick up a friend for his flight was at 1.10 am arriving but by the time 12.30 am .. which i strongly tried to be awake, i could not defeat the Sleeping Monster. I slept!! hahahaha Friend rang me at 2 am to tell me Hey i am here.. and obviously he had to catch the cab !! hahaha :P
Sunday - Met up with my friend. Lunch. Walk around the city and Yahoo.... he got me my SAMSUNG 710N 17" LCD Monitor. Went home and install it . I was sooo happy.... ehheheeheheh couldn't stop smiling for the rest of the afternoon. Later ... took crystal for a walk and then went safeway to get my groceries and then dinner.. .and then went home watch CSI ..... and then knock out man... by 11 am.... i think i doze off well by midnight.
Thats it.. my tiring weekend again. yayayayayaya i am still sleeeeeepy!!!!!!
Saturday - Woke up around 1ish i think. Had maggi mee, went online for a while, did a bit of house chores, shower, and went out dinner with Janice. Went to Foostcray and order Lemon Grass Chicken and a dish of vege. Drove around, put petrol in my car and went home. Wanted to pick up a friend for his flight was at 1.10 am arriving but by the time 12.30 am .. which i strongly tried to be awake, i could not defeat the Sleeping Monster. I slept!! hahahaha Friend rang me at 2 am to tell me Hey i am here.. and obviously he had to catch the cab !! hahaha :P
Sunday - Met up with my friend. Lunch. Walk around the city and Yahoo.... he got me my SAMSUNG 710N 17" LCD Monitor. Went home and install it . I was sooo happy.... ehheheeheheh couldn't stop smiling for the rest of the afternoon. Later ... took crystal for a walk and then went safeway to get my groceries and then dinner.. .and then went home watch CSI ..... and then knock out man... by 11 am.... i think i doze off well by midnight.
Thats it.. my tiring weekend again. yayayayayaya i am still sleeeeeepy!!!!!!
2.25.2005
2.23.2005
Tues 22 Feb
My ex, Freddy is married to his beautiful wife Junko. I am happy for him for he is not just my ex bf but a brother and a friend to me. Junko just email me their wedding pictures and as i went through them, of course, i did stop and think for a while, what would it be like if i was the bride?! Would I be as happy as her? Would I love him so much as she would? We would never know. He lives in the uptown place, have a dog and drive a volvo S60 in Tokyo. Material points and living status definitley he worked very very hard to achieve. I would definitely be one of the best person to understand what he went through. Besides his mum and me, no one ever really knew and care in year 1999.
I was young. Rebelious. Playful. He was more mature and steady and were like a elder brother to me. But indeed, we are meant to meet, to love each other before but not to walk the marriage path. I do wish them all the best, have kids soon and my wishes and blessing are always there for them. Weird, I am not regreting, not sad but happy for Freddy. He deserve a good wife. A wife that would understand him, a wife that would stand by him and definitley a wife that love him for who he really is and not what he has.
To that, i gave myself a quick thought. Am i rushing to get married because alot of my friends are? Seeing them in wedding gowns, in that happy look being someone's wife, am i wanting to be someone's wife that badly? What about my career? what about my ambition? Really, i don't think i never really had any ambition. I just wanted to be someone who is known by an industry. Where head hunters would head hunt me. Where my salary is in the 6 figure bracket. Thats all. And be a mother and a wife. A perfect mother and wife.
In the morning, i would like to make breakfast and have breakfast with my hubby. He go to work, i would do my little stuff, prepare my dinner meals, go to my little shop that i open or help my hubby business and then do my beauty stuff sometimes and then go home cook dinner/bake cake. And night, have a nice walk with my hubby with our children, catch a movie or go to some nice pubs/hotel for a drinks. Seeing my hubby eating my cakes makes me so happy and warmth. Weekends, go shopping and have catch up with my friends, where hubby do his own thing and enjoy his own little hobbies. Visit my parents often. Travel overseas once a year.
Funny, some ppl say, are you sure this is what you want? when u climb the career ladder would u willing to drop everything? when u are well known will u want to just throw that away? As of my trip to msia, one of my collegues mention this to me, Grace, what do u want?! As a frank opinion, for woman if u too career driven your husband will feel tough sometimes. Of course not everyone the case, but only u know lor...
Deep in my heart, I know I am a homey person. I know I want to be the a good mother , specially from my encounter with Crystal, I know I am very in to it . As of my previous ex partners, my tolerance level and my "housewife" look have always been in-place. So i don't think I am really in a rush to get marry. I think I have always like to be a housewife. But yet, I am also a person with character. A person who likes to achieve something , to feel that I have achieve something in my life. I keep on telling ppl, i want to achieve the feeling of Satisfaction with my achievement!! But everyone ask me back, what is ur Satisfaction of Achievement? What is you want to achieve?
As of I was thinking while walking Crystal, what is the Achievement I am striving for in australia?? What do i want? Why i am still here? Is it really that i enjoy the culture and the living here that much? Is the work I am doing now getting me where i want to be? Am i doing all this to prove to my family I am unique? Am i doing all this so that my parents can tell others how well Gracey is doing? Or Am i doing this to proof to myself that the vision i see is the better choice? Oh yeah.. the vision !! Gracey Little Vision. A vision that the whole world think was just purely of "the bf", the vision that ppl take it as an excuse, an lie. Indeed, it was an insult to me! Indded now, the ppl still thinks the same. I didn't make the decision to be in Australia because of my ex bf, Kevin. I know I didn't. But why didn't my family believe me?!
It has nearly been 2 years since we broke up. He is having his 3rd gf now. But i am still in Melbourne alone! So ?? Do i longer need to proof to my family my reason of being in Melbourne is not because of him but because of this vision that i think would make me a better, a stronger, a more independent person and with a better career experience and also a better people relationship person.
I am feeling more homesick than i ever had in the last 6 years. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? You never know. There is always the other side of choice as of the choices I made till today, I learnt, there is never the right choice nor the wrong choice.
I am who I am
I couldn’t change the fact
I know who I shall be
I must learn to fulfill that
Making goals are easy
Achieving them are hard
Getting them are easy.
As long as I have the heart.
It is all in the mind and heart
As long as your mind
Be with your heart
Peace will be in your mind.
Written by : Grace Yong 18-06-2001
These part of my peom have been my support for these years and i do wish to share with everyone, As long as your mind be with your heart, peace will be in your mind.
I was young. Rebelious. Playful. He was more mature and steady and were like a elder brother to me. But indeed, we are meant to meet, to love each other before but not to walk the marriage path. I do wish them all the best, have kids soon and my wishes and blessing are always there for them. Weird, I am not regreting, not sad but happy for Freddy. He deserve a good wife. A wife that would understand him, a wife that would stand by him and definitley a wife that love him for who he really is and not what he has.
To that, i gave myself a quick thought. Am i rushing to get married because alot of my friends are? Seeing them in wedding gowns, in that happy look being someone's wife, am i wanting to be someone's wife that badly? What about my career? what about my ambition? Really, i don't think i never really had any ambition. I just wanted to be someone who is known by an industry. Where head hunters would head hunt me. Where my salary is in the 6 figure bracket. Thats all. And be a mother and a wife. A perfect mother and wife.
In the morning, i would like to make breakfast and have breakfast with my hubby. He go to work, i would do my little stuff, prepare my dinner meals, go to my little shop that i open or help my hubby business and then do my beauty stuff sometimes and then go home cook dinner/bake cake. And night, have a nice walk with my hubby with our children, catch a movie or go to some nice pubs/hotel for a drinks. Seeing my hubby eating my cakes makes me so happy and warmth. Weekends, go shopping and have catch up with my friends, where hubby do his own thing and enjoy his own little hobbies. Visit my parents often. Travel overseas once a year.
Funny, some ppl say, are you sure this is what you want? when u climb the career ladder would u willing to drop everything? when u are well known will u want to just throw that away? As of my trip to msia, one of my collegues mention this to me, Grace, what do u want?! As a frank opinion, for woman if u too career driven your husband will feel tough sometimes. Of course not everyone the case, but only u know lor...
Deep in my heart, I know I am a homey person. I know I want to be the a good mother , specially from my encounter with Crystal, I know I am very in to it . As of my previous ex partners, my tolerance level and my "housewife" look have always been in-place. So i don't think I am really in a rush to get marry. I think I have always like to be a housewife. But yet, I am also a person with character. A person who likes to achieve something , to feel that I have achieve something in my life. I keep on telling ppl, i want to achieve the feeling of Satisfaction with my achievement!! But everyone ask me back, what is ur Satisfaction of Achievement? What is you want to achieve?
As of I was thinking while walking Crystal, what is the Achievement I am striving for in australia?? What do i want? Why i am still here? Is it really that i enjoy the culture and the living here that much? Is the work I am doing now getting me where i want to be? Am i doing all this to prove to my family I am unique? Am i doing all this so that my parents can tell others how well Gracey is doing? Or Am i doing this to proof to myself that the vision i see is the better choice? Oh yeah.. the vision !! Gracey Little Vision. A vision that the whole world think was just purely of "the bf", the vision that ppl take it as an excuse, an lie. Indeed, it was an insult to me! Indded now, the ppl still thinks the same. I didn't make the decision to be in Australia because of my ex bf, Kevin. I know I didn't. But why didn't my family believe me?!
It has nearly been 2 years since we broke up. He is having his 3rd gf now. But i am still in Melbourne alone! So ?? Do i longer need to proof to my family my reason of being in Melbourne is not because of him but because of this vision that i think would make me a better, a stronger, a more independent person and with a better career experience and also a better people relationship person.
I am feeling more homesick than i ever had in the last 6 years. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? You never know. There is always the other side of choice as of the choices I made till today, I learnt, there is never the right choice nor the wrong choice.
I am who I am
I couldn’t change the fact
I know who I shall be
I must learn to fulfill that
Making goals are easy
Achieving them are hard
Getting them are easy.
As long as I have the heart.
It is all in the mind and heart
As long as your mind
Be with your heart
Peace will be in your mind.
Written by : Grace Yong 18-06-2001
These part of my peom have been my support for these years and i do wish to share with everyone, As long as your mind be with your heart, peace will be in your mind.
2.22.2005
1 week as of the Horror
pretty much this is the update from last mon till this mon. I have been a zombie. Didn't sleep till god knows when. Every night i was like a wide awake owl. Every single sound would startled me up. My cousin came back on Friday. I guess it did make a difference. I think I did sleep that night for 6 nights in a roll without sleeping.
The weekends were pretty much the normal. Had lunch and dinners with friends due to their sister in law, sisters came to Melbourne to study.
Monday normal day at work. I just find the whole week tiring. Busy and not enough sleep. I really wish i could gain back the energetic me really soon or else i would not be meeting up with my work target. OH gosh...... why am i in australia where i could be someone else wife?? *wink wink*
The weekends were pretty much the normal. Had lunch and dinners with friends due to their sister in law, sisters came to Melbourne to study.
Monday normal day at work. I just find the whole week tiring. Busy and not enough sleep. I really wish i could gain back the energetic me really soon or else i would not be meeting up with my work target. OH gosh...... why am i in australia where i could be someone else wife?? *wink wink*
2.14.2005
MY HomeComing Disaster
My Malaysia Trip back this year was indeed fantastic. I had a great time visiting my fellow collegues and friends both in KL and Singapore. Indeed it is too short. Just 2 weeks.
However, when I arrive back to Melbourne on Sat 12.12.05, around 11pm I step back into my apartment, I found my house got broke in..... I was shocked...... call police... But police is off duty at 11 pm and can only come in the morning… ok.. Got no choice but to wait…. Rang my family… told them about it …. Rang insurance…rang mobile phone company...my friend say he would company me the whole night but middle of the morning 3 am he left.. and i woke up and couldn't find him.. i was so scared... i break down.. i cried and cried ... for so long.... and tried calling many friends but no one care.. even i ask them to come over to company they give me all stupid reason... was so fed up..(fair enough it was 4ish AM but hey, if my friend rang me and crying there, even I didn't have a car I would take a cab and go but yet said, everyone is different and think differently) and at last call my option.. i didn't wanted to call them because my gf is pregnant...but i got no choice.. well the husband is also my friend. so the husband came over and company me.. till the sunday morning the police came.
The Police, Senior Constable Daniel Thorne … still can remember his name out of my mind, took some pictures, walk around, write something on and say that’s about it and left around 10ish. Had a woo haa with my family members about getting the door glass fixed. One of them and my mum wanted me to wait till I get hold of the body corporate person in charge and the other one ask me to fixed it first and if the body corporate wouldn't pay it for it then only talk about it later. Obviously, I would want to fix it on Sunday but by the time I could get the body corporate person would be Monday, that means I wouldn't have to sleep on Sunday and to sleep in fear. All because of money!! Because if I fixed it first, the body corporate may not take it …. All those stupid stuff… oh well, anyway conclusion I got it fixed. The person came around 1 pm and got it done in about 1 hr time and he would bill my body corporate due to it would be part of the Building Insurance policy (as was suggested by the Obrien Glass person).
By the time the person left, I was really really tired and drain. Manage to get a nap, and it was warm my room and woke up, shower, start to unpack my luggage, clean the dinning room.. Get on with my life…what u expect, it was my choice to be in Melbourne, and to live in that apartment, if only I was rich enough to rent a better place… ahhaha .. Oh well, went out take away dinner… at that time I was feeling sick and it would be my first proper meal since my last meal taken in the air plane. I think I got the fever as of I haven't been sleeping well and all this whoo haa really drain me. Slept about 9 pm.
Gesh… and I wanted to write about my Holiday trip.. Shall write it soon when I am back to my happy self.
However, when I arrive back to Melbourne on Sat 12.12.05, around 11pm I step back into my apartment, I found my house got broke in..... I was shocked...... call police... But police is off duty at 11 pm and can only come in the morning… ok.. Got no choice but to wait…. Rang my family… told them about it …. Rang insurance…rang mobile phone company...my friend say he would company me the whole night but middle of the morning 3 am he left.. and i woke up and couldn't find him.. i was so scared... i break down.. i cried and cried ... for so long.... and tried calling many friends but no one care.. even i ask them to come over to company they give me all stupid reason... was so fed up..(fair enough it was 4ish AM but hey, if my friend rang me and crying there, even I didn't have a car I would take a cab and go but yet said, everyone is different and think differently) and at last call my option.. i didn't wanted to call them because my gf is pregnant...but i got no choice.. well the husband is also my friend. so the husband came over and company me.. till the sunday morning the police came.
The Police, Senior Constable Daniel Thorne … still can remember his name out of my mind, took some pictures, walk around, write something on and say that’s about it and left around 10ish. Had a woo haa with my family members about getting the door glass fixed. One of them and my mum wanted me to wait till I get hold of the body corporate person in charge and the other one ask me to fixed it first and if the body corporate wouldn't pay it for it then only talk about it later. Obviously, I would want to fix it on Sunday but by the time I could get the body corporate person would be Monday, that means I wouldn't have to sleep on Sunday and to sleep in fear. All because of money!! Because if I fixed it first, the body corporate may not take it …. All those stupid stuff… oh well, anyway conclusion I got it fixed. The person came around 1 pm and got it done in about 1 hr time and he would bill my body corporate due to it would be part of the Building Insurance policy (as was suggested by the Obrien Glass person).
By the time the person left, I was really really tired and drain. Manage to get a nap, and it was warm my room and woke up, shower, start to unpack my luggage, clean the dinning room.. Get on with my life…what u expect, it was my choice to be in Melbourne, and to live in that apartment, if only I was rich enough to rent a better place… ahhaha .. Oh well, went out take away dinner… at that time I was feeling sick and it would be my first proper meal since my last meal taken in the air plane. I think I got the fever as of I haven't been sleeping well and all this whoo haa really drain me. Slept about 9 pm.
Gesh… and I wanted to write about my Holiday trip.. Shall write it soon when I am back to my happy self.
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