As I was browsing last night on friendster, I bump into a friend I once had at college time. She was one of my great friends which we would hang around at clases, lunches and even go to shopping mall. We share stories and our relationship with each other. Soon, we both ended up in melbourne but yet problems occured. She was with a bf which was strongly wrong. Even all the trouble her bf and herself cause to me, I was never angry with her, but i guess at the last straw, how she abandon a dog due to her "problems", i was very disappointed with her. Very disappointed with her.
The dog was in hunger, dirtyness, and was with her "crazy" bf. I remember that morning my ex annd another friends bf brought the dog (a jack russel) back to my place. She stinks and was scared and hungry. My this gf who was in malaysia, true to say was in a lot of deep shit but yet she sounded less concern of the dog.
In life, how many couples got a dog due to want to act as daddy mummy and when the relationship dies, the poor animal goes with a "question mark". Many were abandon with dog shelters. Or to be hastely given to other "friends" of theirs.
In life, how many adults got a dog due to their little kids wants a "puppy" but not knowing it would grow into a DOG. Puppy loses it cuteness and there the kids lost his/her interest to the animal. Dad and mum has to continue to clean and feed the dog, but yet have no time to play with the dog. Dogs get lonely and sad but hey, say thank god at least the animal got a shelter and food some say, but yet, if as human, we got food and shelter but no love and care, how we would feel?
Too many examples of dogs been neglected. Too many stories of dogs being abandon. So to say, at my own house in maalysia, the scenario occurs. Due to selfishness and stubborness of some old people, dogs get chain until their neck are swollen; dogs get chain until they strangled themselves; dogs got skin infections; pregnant dogs that were too old and died due to unable to fully give birth; dogs that were poison by snakes. dogs due to were locked out of their usual cage and got rain for dogs and died; some which we don't even know the reasons of why they died. the maids just say: just died and we don't know why.
We have dogs that were locked up in a cage all the time. Even breeds with certificates gets locked up too. Pomerarions that fur were not comb at all but treated as a normal short hair mutt dog.
Is there something I can do? No. There isn't. Due to politics, due to the house does not belong to me, due to that the dogs isn't on how ground to speak up for.
As for my little one, is given special treatment. However yet due to she is an indoor dog and her cage is my "room", but so i am lucky to have a maid that have a better heart, but once her contract ends, then how? Would the other maid be as careful as this one? Words all said, I feel that I failed my little one, and her other siblings.
God, forgive me for I have sin - I have sin that I did not do my best to be kind and help those poor animals that I hear and see about which are lonely and ill-treated.
12.29.2006
12.13.2006
11.20.2006
11.13.2006
Written by a dear friend to a dear friend
Just a song before I go,
To whom it may concern.
Travelling twice the speed of sound
It's easy to get burned.
When the shows were over
We had to get back home,
And when we opened up the door
I had to be alone.
She helped me with my suitcase,
She stands before my eyes
Driving me to the airport,
And to the friendly skies.
Going through security
I held her for so long.
She finally looked at me in love,
And she was gone.
Just a song before I go,
A lesson to be learned.
Travelling twice the speed of sound
It's easy to get burned.
Written by : Colton
To whom it may concern.
Travelling twice the speed of sound
It's easy to get burned.
When the shows were over
We had to get back home,
And when we opened up the door
I had to be alone.
She helped me with my suitcase,
She stands before my eyes
Driving me to the airport,
And to the friendly skies.
Going through security
I held her for so long.
She finally looked at me in love,
And she was gone.
Just a song before I go,
A lesson to be learned.
Travelling twice the speed of sound
It's easy to get burned.
Written by : Colton
8.24.2006
8.18.2006
Crystal Before After
Crystal is no longer shaved.... a before after pictures....
PISSS me off, I tried to upload pictures for the whole weeek and it is still not working!! My readers.... be patience.. i wil lry to load Crystal pic as soon as possible... :P
PISSS me off, I tried to upload pictures for the whole weeek and it is still not working!! My readers.... be patience.. i wil lry to load Crystal pic as soon as possible... :P
8.08.2006
“Can You Feel My World” is track 11 on Wang Lee Hom’s 2003 album, Unbelievable.
王力宏 Can You Feel My World
曲：王力宏 词：李焯雄
曲：王力宏 词：李焯雄 编：
你只喜欢我微笑 你决定我的需要 我要怎样说才好 我不是为你制造
关心像是泥沼 拉我往下掉 爱是漂亮的口号 透过你的眼角
你把我的喜好 随便删掉 变成你要的调调 你为我好 我知道 我都知道
我的烦恼 我的骄傲 你却不明了 怎样爱你才好 毕竟黑豹 需要自由奔跑
(不能满足于拥抱) (I keep comin' back for more)
Can You Feel My World 真实的我没有办法伪造
Can You Take My Hands 真诚你会感觉到
Can You Feel My World 真实的我没办法伪造
并不想讨好 你才觉得我重要 (我一点都不重要)
你只要我有礼貌 其它假装看不到
我要怎么说才好 当我的情绪低潮 Rap I keep on comin' back for more yo
日日夜夜我闭着双眼祈祷 为什么只有我的音乐能够让我依靠
我知道我的世界已经变得越来越小 跑不掉逃不了
怎样面带着微笑 怎么面对着你才好 怎么眼泪都在掉
怎么嘴嘟着好严肃 这不是哭着就好
什么旋律在我的脑袋一直转一直绕
志力一直撑着我 再一次祷告 帮助我
I don't feel complete no matter what happens to me in singapore. I am missing something. I am missing Crystal so much. I miss her mad. I love her but yet I do not really do my best. I have abandoned her in some way. What a mother I am.
I go out with friends and not play with her. I spend time with my friends, movies, interstate trip and left her all alone bored at home. I am to be blame. I am selfish. I am horrible. I don't deserve to say I love her so much. If i do, i would be with her most of my time.
And now i am in singapore. I am more cruel than I thought I could be.
我罪﹐ 我全都是罪。 我不是一個好媽媽。 天呀﹐我到底還是我自稱呼自己是一個愛<楊水晶>的人嗎?
我不配。 一點都不配。 就如一個朋友說﹐ 很多很多很多很多人自稱自己是個善心的人﹐可是真真有多少人是做到的?
I go out with friends and not play with her. I spend time with my friends, movies, interstate trip and left her all alone bored at home. I am to be blame. I am selfish. I am horrible. I don't deserve to say I love her so much. If i do, i would be with her most of my time.
And now i am in singapore. I am more cruel than I thought I could be.
我罪﹐ 我全都是罪。 我不是一個好媽媽。 天呀﹐我到底還是我自稱呼自己是一個愛<楊水晶>的人嗎?
我不配。 一點都不配。 就如一個朋友說﹐ 很多很多很多很多人自稱自己是個善心的人﹐可是真真有多少人是做到的?
8.07.2006
Had a very eventful day today. I went to watch 3 people eat DimSum buffet starting at 3ish pm till 5 pm. And we walked to buy a newspaper and then we went to a suburb as Ms E got to pick up something. While waiting and the driving trip, i was hungry. So I "asked" them to accompany me back , watching me eat. And eventually.... Mr. K agree as the other two was very easy going. heheh
they took me to botak, an amerian food stall. I had steak. Gosh, it was a long wait and the 3 people watch me had my dinner. It was simple. There was moments when no one talking and everyone is looking at someone. However, it was simple. We didn't have to make up silly topics just to bring up the atmosphere. I like it though. There is a common understanding that it is OK once in a while to have no topic and just meet up for a meal.
I am happy to spend time with them as they all are working and really hard to spend time with them and do not require to cater anyone whether they are being entertai. Simple friendship which I really enjoy a lot. They are my close friends in Singapore. It is indeed my blessing to know them. Thank you my dear friends
Have a good week ahead and enjoy your NATIONAL DAY as you guys all 3 of u are pure singaporeans , hanging out with a Malaysian here. :)
they took me to botak, an amerian food stall. I had steak. Gosh, it was a long wait and the 3 people watch me had my dinner. It was simple. There was moments when no one talking and everyone is looking at someone. However, it was simple. We didn't have to make up silly topics just to bring up the atmosphere. I like it though. There is a common understanding that it is OK once in a while to have no topic and just meet up for a meal.
I am happy to spend time with them as they all are working and really hard to spend time with them and do not require to cater anyone whether they are being entertai. Simple friendship which I really enjoy a lot. They are my close friends in Singapore. It is indeed my blessing to know them. Thank you my dear friends
Have a good week ahead and enjoy your NATIONAL DAY as you guys all 3 of u are pure singaporeans , hanging out with a Malaysian here. :)
8.05.2006
as time goes it is august already. How time flies.
It is funny, sometimes you knwo someone and you never met him/her but you feel so comfortable talking to them. but sometiems when meeting in person, the feeling is different. Some are worried that this would happen.
Some you never met but yet you can strike a conversation on the internet and on the phone and talk for hours. Chatting away. Teasing each other or even to some extend of flirting. hehehe And when you go to sleep after the chat, you feel a sweet feeling in your heart, as if it is melting and you have a little simple sweet smile, smiling to yourself and you can even feel the smile. To that, you feel the sweetness of a smile that you jsut smile to yourself. hehehe
Isn't it nice to have this? In life, we grow up, we become materialistic, we become goal oriented, we become stingy, we become workaholic, we become mr excuses, we become mr judgemental. But then we still could have this simple smile in our life. Cherish it when you can my dear readers. As each smile, you feel a great warmth and it would last you quite long!
It is funny, sometimes you knwo someone and you never met him/her but you feel so comfortable talking to them. but sometiems when meeting in person, the feeling is different. Some are worried that this would happen.
Some you never met but yet you can strike a conversation on the internet and on the phone and talk for hours. Chatting away. Teasing each other or even to some extend of flirting. hehehe And when you go to sleep after the chat, you feel a sweet feeling in your heart, as if it is melting and you have a little simple sweet smile, smiling to yourself and you can even feel the smile. To that, you feel the sweetness of a smile that you jsut smile to yourself. hehehe
Isn't it nice to have this? In life, we grow up, we become materialistic, we become goal oriented, we become stingy, we become workaholic, we become mr excuses, we become mr judgemental. But then we still could have this simple smile in our life. Cherish it when you can my dear readers. As each smile, you feel a great warmth and it would last you quite long!
7.31.2006
Indeed, a blog to understand and a blog to misunderstand
Due to writing this blog, I nearly lost a friend. A friend that i knew in 2002 which i pretty much wrote to everyday teling my days and sharing my views with. However my friend saw my blog in a different prespective.
there is so much justification to his accusisation that i want to justify but felt, is he too quick in just assuming thats the way i am??
Indeed he is much older and may be much wiser than me. but yet my blog is a place where I can express myself and also to talk and view things in another footwear. Indeed it takes time to know a person in knowing what words she/he says are really meant and what are say to let go of his frustration.
my blog on abortion - i too agree that it is very cruel and selfish of the girl to let the parents go through those mental and financial burden. but I am not saying how i wish my parents to spend their money and mental health for me on those occasion, but what i mean is whethre my parents still accept me as their daughter and support me to go through it? and not chase me out of the door and ask me to live/die on my own (where u get to see on TV shows a lot) .
For the guy in KL that came through , he thinks of me being greedy to accept the gift and let him heart broken home. How he not know i felt pain on being cold on him and had to do that. we were pen pals thats why i gave my address to him in Australia but I did not when i was in singapore. I just roughly told him which suburb i am as I always have trust for all my friends. I trust he won't abuse my trust. But yet , once again he did. However this friend of mine think different.
Me smsing my friends at the middle of the night is when i felt the most weakest. It is when i thought of someone, of course u can say why not just tell her/ him u miss them and not talk about something else. But to me, thats how i felt to make things that we are close and he/she is in my heart. Maybe to some this is inconsiderate but to some they appreciate my thoughts.
Yes I am childish and naive. He felt that I have motives. I guess I can't blame him for being so. But I have not any motives and thats why i don't see a reason for me to explain all my words and thought to him and hoping he would see me for who i am, see the inner side of me, or to see the other me.
I believe man and a woman does not always have to be physical. I believe there is pure friendship. I was hoping he could be one of them. maybe the ways I communicate with him needs to be change. Maybe the words are use are misleading him. Maybe he doesn't understand how i blog. how i feel when i blog and how i position myself in different angles.
Told you guys I am a mess up in the brains person ... complicated too. :) But thank you for still loving me and caring for me. Thinking of the pure friendship and love you guys gave me really warmths my heart and reminds me that i would not disappoint anyone of you! :)
there is so much justification to his accusisation that i want to justify but felt, is he too quick in just assuming thats the way i am??
Indeed he is much older and may be much wiser than me. but yet my blog is a place where I can express myself and also to talk and view things in another footwear. Indeed it takes time to know a person in knowing what words she/he says are really meant and what are say to let go of his frustration.
my blog on abortion - i too agree that it is very cruel and selfish of the girl to let the parents go through those mental and financial burden. but I am not saying how i wish my parents to spend their money and mental health for me on those occasion, but what i mean is whethre my parents still accept me as their daughter and support me to go through it? and not chase me out of the door and ask me to live/die on my own (where u get to see on TV shows a lot) .
For the guy in KL that came through , he thinks of me being greedy to accept the gift and let him heart broken home. How he not know i felt pain on being cold on him and had to do that. we were pen pals thats why i gave my address to him in Australia but I did not when i was in singapore. I just roughly told him which suburb i am as I always have trust for all my friends. I trust he won't abuse my trust. But yet , once again he did. However this friend of mine think different.
Me smsing my friends at the middle of the night is when i felt the most weakest. It is when i thought of someone, of course u can say why not just tell her/ him u miss them and not talk about something else. But to me, thats how i felt to make things that we are close and he/she is in my heart. Maybe to some this is inconsiderate but to some they appreciate my thoughts.
Yes I am childish and naive. He felt that I have motives. I guess I can't blame him for being so. But I have not any motives and thats why i don't see a reason for me to explain all my words and thought to him and hoping he would see me for who i am, see the inner side of me, or to see the other me.
I believe man and a woman does not always have to be physical. I believe there is pure friendship. I was hoping he could be one of them. maybe the ways I communicate with him needs to be change. Maybe the words are use are misleading him. Maybe he doesn't understand how i blog. how i feel when i blog and how i position myself in different angles.
Told you guys I am a mess up in the brains person ... complicated too. :) But thank you for still loving me and caring for me. Thinking of the pure friendship and love you guys gave me really warmths my heart and reminds me that i would not disappoint anyone of you! :)
Girl Friendss
I am in singapore now. Everything is going well. I presume. Just that I don’t have a group of friends that I could hang out with.
I miss you guys so much. In Melbourne, there is Rachel, Shanice, Nadia, June, Jimmy, Hwan, Ting , SHanShan, we would meet up on Friday nights for dinner and drinking. Weekends too. Shanice usually would come by in the weekends and walk crystal and then bath her (nadia and Rachel sometimes join in) then we would go for dinner or movie. Then same thing, drinks or chill out at someones place. Sometimes clubbing. We would always have a gf to dance with and the silly moves of each other that we laugh about later. I still remember ms SHANSHAN comment on my moves. And I still remember my Sa Da Jie ones too. And …. Basically everyones. J
Someone to gossip about anything , someone to share your downs and support you. Eventhough some are still studying and some are working, but we manage to support each other. Sometimes we go out in big group and sometimes in individual group. Kinda everyone would find someone closer. But it was happening. Full of laughter always because someone would come out with some funny statements even the most least spoken one. Girl friends, sisters, jie mei….. it is indeed different having girl friends.
My Msia friends, I miss having my mamak drinks with you guys. I miss having the parties I usually organize where everyone do show up and the craziness we would go to. Mobile phone are busy as we gossip and talk about old days. Sms of concerns and care. It was good. Simplicity and indeed good.
Not to say I won’t be able to have this friendship in Singapore. But yet, it seems different. I wanted to go out and explore Singapore. However, I see myself kinda not going out. Do I really have to go to clubs to meet new friends? Or should I say, I should mature up. Everyone is busy with their work and partners. Who have time to be “girl friends” with you? I know I know. Just kinda that simplicity in me is still there and I loved it. In Singapore , I have ex-collegues, secondary and primary school friends and even my internet friends. It is good for once in a while catch up but not someone to share more. Guess that’s why ppl look for partners (bf gf) to fit into this.
But I don’t understand sometimes, if u got a partner how come u won’t have time for ur friends? Ahhh because u are in a comfort zone. All u need is to accommodate one person needs and requirements and not a group of people. Indeed indeed. But yet as for my new resolution to myself I told that I won’t. I would still want to catch up with my friends. If they still take me as friends.
So my friends who are now situated in Singapore. You have always been my friend, eventhoguh we didn’t hang out much or talk on the phone much but lets give our friendship another chance, lets be friends again! SIAO right me writing this? WHO CARES (as quoted by Jimmy Lao @ Melbourne).
I miss you guys so much. In Melbourne, there is Rachel, Shanice, Nadia, June, Jimmy, Hwan, Ting , SHanShan, we would meet up on Friday nights for dinner and drinking. Weekends too. Shanice usually would come by in the weekends and walk crystal and then bath her (nadia and Rachel sometimes join in) then we would go for dinner or movie. Then same thing, drinks or chill out at someones place. Sometimes clubbing. We would always have a gf to dance with and the silly moves of each other that we laugh about later. I still remember ms SHANSHAN comment on my moves. And I still remember my Sa Da Jie ones too. And …. Basically everyones. J
Someone to gossip about anything , someone to share your downs and support you. Eventhough some are still studying and some are working, but we manage to support each other. Sometimes we go out in big group and sometimes in individual group. Kinda everyone would find someone closer. But it was happening. Full of laughter always because someone would come out with some funny statements even the most least spoken one. Girl friends, sisters, jie mei….. it is indeed different having girl friends.
My Msia friends, I miss having my mamak drinks with you guys. I miss having the parties I usually organize where everyone do show up and the craziness we would go to. Mobile phone are busy as we gossip and talk about old days. Sms of concerns and care. It was good. Simplicity and indeed good.
Not to say I won’t be able to have this friendship in Singapore. But yet, it seems different. I wanted to go out and explore Singapore. However, I see myself kinda not going out. Do I really have to go to clubs to meet new friends? Or should I say, I should mature up. Everyone is busy with their work and partners. Who have time to be “girl friends” with you? I know I know. Just kinda that simplicity in me is still there and I loved it. In Singapore , I have ex-collegues, secondary and primary school friends and even my internet friends. It is good for once in a while catch up but not someone to share more. Guess that’s why ppl look for partners (bf gf) to fit into this.
But I don’t understand sometimes, if u got a partner how come u won’t have time for ur friends? Ahhh because u are in a comfort zone. All u need is to accommodate one person needs and requirements and not a group of people. Indeed indeed. But yet as for my new resolution to myself I told that I won’t. I would still want to catch up with my friends. If they still take me as friends.
So my friends who are now situated in Singapore. You have always been my friend, eventhoguh we didn’t hang out much or talk on the phone much but lets give our friendship another chance, lets be friends again! SIAO right me writing this? WHO CARES (as quoted by Jimmy Lao @ Melbourne).
7.27.2006
MY KayaToast and 1/2Boil Egg Craving
Today 27 July is my first time step into a Yakun at Far East Plaza.
I remember my last visit to singapore years ago when I was a teenager I had the same SET A (by then it was not in SETs) and enjoyed it very much and always would recommend friends to have it.
However I was disappointed with today food and drink. The egg is cold, it should have at least some warmnest in it. The Toast was dry and the kaya was definitely too little. I understand it could be cut cost but then it would lose the fundamental of Kaya toast if u cant really taste kaya but only the chunk of butter. The drink was hot but it lost the aroma.
Eventhough it is only a S$3.70 for a set like this, but I hope that Yakun could hold up to the original quality that it had years ago.
Just a simple 2 cents worth of my opinion.
7.25.2006
Idiots!!!
This morning receive an email, and was so piss off. How can someone be some irresponsibile and do not respect others privacy, don't tell me it is accidentally which I do not believe that it could be as there is no way someone could be "accidently' to this matter.
True, there is nothing much i can do now as it is done. Lets hope it does not cause any extra or further issues in the future or else there would be a more dynamic world war 3 coming up.
ARghhhh so piss off ........ do not bother to ask me what is it , just that I am piss off and feel so helpless. And Angry!!
True, there is nothing much i can do now as it is done. Lets hope it does not cause any extra or further issues in the future or else there would be a more dynamic world war 3 coming up.
ARghhhh so piss off ........ do not bother to ask me what is it , just that I am piss off and feel so helpless. And Angry!!
7.18.2006
7.11.2006
"墮胎不負責任事件﹐註定不得好死"
"墮胎不負責任事件﹐註定不得好死" - quoted by Wong Li Shen on MSN
A friend of mine wrote this as her title on MSN. I was wondering, the topic, Abortion has been a world wide topic. Everyone have their own view on it.. What would your view be my readers of my blog ?!
Lets share my view.
A catholic I am, to go through abortion is the worst deadline sin in my mothers view and also of religion and of course it is a SIN to do so. Of course, don't talk about gotten rape which result the preganancy but jsut a normal scenario. As mom say, u want to happy then u have to bear the result. True, to have sex (make love) was a enjoyable process and having the baby is the cause of it. Because sex (make love) main reason is to make baby - the seed of love. Responsibilities lies through.
I had a friend who just dated his gf for 1 month and she is pregnant. They are married and having their 2nd child in less than 3 years. They have their up and downs but to see this sort of look "playboy" guy has his fatherly side. They have a house and a family. Settle down it is. They are average 26 27 both professionals. One is a engineer and one works in law firm.
I too had a friend who went through abortion 3 times. First, she was in Uni (20) she really loved this guy but they were both in Uni. 2nd time she aborted when she was in Uni too (22), and her most recent abortion was when she was 26. All three abortion she wanted to keep the baby , but her partners are not ready to have them. And of course so is she. She was still studying her uni and defintitely not capable to take care of a baby. It lies to her partner which they object of having the baby, one even doubt that she was pregnant. Incredible! Her parents flew in for the third abortion to help her go through it. At one stage, I really envy her to have parents like hers, I imagine, what would my parents do if they found out i am pregnant before marriage?!
Some young girls are like me. Worry about the parents response, worry about the "face" and choose another path to end this issue. they go for suicidal or secretly go through abortion at some crappy clinic. If only they are more close or more open to their parents, if only parents are more acceptable to this situation and react more calmly and not yell and scream "Bad daughter, u no longer my daughter, get out of my house, u cheap slut, simple sleep with people, u totally don't care ur family , u are cheap as a whore, whore at least get money, u let ppl sleep on you for free.... totally no value u ... etc etc "
I can imagine if a girl age 18, if she is not strong, how much pressure she goes through hearing those words from her parents and her bf then is only a punk too who is studying or working, who is totally helpless in a point of them. Even they get marry, the guys side parents would always look down on her. "what a cheap girl, easily get done, marry into our family also not proper.... no class... not compatible to our family .. etc etc"
Words... all words. Words from the girls family and words from the guys family. Because of worrying to hear this words for years to go, they choose abortion. Could you blame them for choosing this path? Whether u are a 22 year old or a 18 year old, these words are really unbearable. Wheter u are educated or uneducated, there is a moral and a culture that exist in the human society that u would have to bear. Young executives these days think different, true, they think of long term, but then if u are not a married woman and go through abortion, what would ppl see on u? what would ppl think of you? But then if u don't have a father for the child, what would ur child go through and what would ppl think of them in future?
once again, if u ask me whether i support abortion, i really do not know how to answer. All i can say, it depends on situation and people. How much I do not wish abortion to happen, as it is killng a living thing. But yet, if 2 people were responsibile, they should have done the neccessity to prevent it for happening. In this modern world, there are pre and after preganancy preventions. why don't they just do it ? lazy ? selfish? All is said, it is just a choice. Do u choose to do it right or not.
A friend of mine wrote this as her title on MSN. I was wondering, the topic, Abortion has been a world wide topic. Everyone have their own view on it.. What would your view be my readers of my blog ?!
Lets share my view.
A catholic I am, to go through abortion is the worst deadline sin in my mothers view and also of religion and of course it is a SIN to do so. Of course, don't talk about gotten rape which result the preganancy but jsut a normal scenario. As mom say, u want to happy then u have to bear the result. True, to have sex (make love) was a enjoyable process and having the baby is the cause of it. Because sex (make love) main reason is to make baby - the seed of love. Responsibilities lies through.
I had a friend who just dated his gf for 1 month and she is pregnant. They are married and having their 2nd child in less than 3 years. They have their up and downs but to see this sort of look "playboy" guy has his fatherly side. They have a house and a family. Settle down it is. They are average 26 27 both professionals. One is a engineer and one works in law firm.
I too had a friend who went through abortion 3 times. First, she was in Uni (20) she really loved this guy but they were both in Uni. 2nd time she aborted when she was in Uni too (22), and her most recent abortion was when she was 26. All three abortion she wanted to keep the baby , but her partners are not ready to have them. And of course so is she. She was still studying her uni and defintitely not capable to take care of a baby. It lies to her partner which they object of having the baby, one even doubt that she was pregnant. Incredible! Her parents flew in for the third abortion to help her go through it. At one stage, I really envy her to have parents like hers, I imagine, what would my parents do if they found out i am pregnant before marriage?!
Some young girls are like me. Worry about the parents response, worry about the "face" and choose another path to end this issue. they go for suicidal or secretly go through abortion at some crappy clinic. If only they are more close or more open to their parents, if only parents are more acceptable to this situation and react more calmly and not yell and scream "Bad daughter, u no longer my daughter, get out of my house, u cheap slut, simple sleep with people, u totally don't care ur family , u are cheap as a whore, whore at least get money, u let ppl sleep on you for free.... totally no value u ... etc etc "
I can imagine if a girl age 18, if she is not strong, how much pressure she goes through hearing those words from her parents and her bf then is only a punk too who is studying or working, who is totally helpless in a point of them. Even they get marry, the guys side parents would always look down on her. "what a cheap girl, easily get done, marry into our family also not proper.... no class... not compatible to our family .. etc etc"
Words... all words. Words from the girls family and words from the guys family. Because of worrying to hear this words for years to go, they choose abortion. Could you blame them for choosing this path? Whether u are a 22 year old or a 18 year old, these words are really unbearable. Wheter u are educated or uneducated, there is a moral and a culture that exist in the human society that u would have to bear. Young executives these days think different, true, they think of long term, but then if u are not a married woman and go through abortion, what would ppl see on u? what would ppl think of you? But then if u don't have a father for the child, what would ur child go through and what would ppl think of them in future?
once again, if u ask me whether i support abortion, i really do not know how to answer. All i can say, it depends on situation and people. How much I do not wish abortion to happen, as it is killng a living thing. But yet, if 2 people were responsibile, they should have done the neccessity to prevent it for happening. In this modern world, there are pre and after preganancy preventions. why don't they just do it ? lazy ? selfish? All is said, it is just a choice. Do u choose to do it right or not.
7.10.2006
Sunday 10th july
I had malibu with milk in rocks. Taste coconut. Taste like santan. yummmy........
and I am off to prepare for my Italy vs France match at 2 am ~~
ITALY>>> U GOT TO WIN......... :) GO GO GO
and I am off to prepare for my Italy vs France match at 2 am ~~
ITALY>>> U GOT TO WIN......... :) GO GO GO
7.08.2006
Saturday 8th July
Simple as I thought I am. People commented that my blog looks gloomy, sounds sad, sounds pessimistic, sounds so desperate. hahhaahhahaha well, maybe I am. It does seem I am less strength when I blogged as I open up myself to whatever I think and feel.
In terms of family, no matter how much I am unhappy with them, but yet I still bow down to their "orders" and "expectation" they have to me. Why? Simple - I love them and it is in my nature to be filial.
In terms of relationship, no matter what I dream to be with it, but yet at the end I would still go with my feelings, and would be with someone I love even he is poor than to be with someone who is OK but I don't love. Why? Simple - I can't let my heart die as it is just not me.
In terms of career, no matter how I wish I am in the position, but yet I am just a average working class. Why? Simple - I am good at something but yet to find out about it. I can be a great support to a company but yet I could be a great businesswoman for myself.
In terms of financial, no matter how much I want money, but yet I don't think I am to that level of "in love" of money. Why? Simple - I believe you need money to live but money couldn't buy you everything. A rich girl may not have true friendship like a normal girl could have. A rich girl may not have pure romance as a normal girl could have.
I am who I am, and I would learn to be happy for who I am and what I am.
In terms of family, no matter how much I am unhappy with them, but yet I still bow down to their "orders" and "expectation" they have to me. Why? Simple - I love them and it is in my nature to be filial.
In terms of relationship, no matter what I dream to be with it, but yet at the end I would still go with my feelings, and would be with someone I love even he is poor than to be with someone who is OK but I don't love. Why? Simple - I can't let my heart die as it is just not me.
In terms of career, no matter how I wish I am in the position, but yet I am just a average working class. Why? Simple - I am good at something but yet to find out about it. I can be a great support to a company but yet I could be a great businesswoman for myself.
In terms of financial, no matter how much I want money, but yet I don't think I am to that level of "in love" of money. Why? Simple - I believe you need money to live but money couldn't buy you everything. A rich girl may not have true friendship like a normal girl could have. A rich girl may not have pure romance as a normal girl could have.
I am who I am, and I would learn to be happy for who I am and what I am.
7.07.2006
Friday 7th July
Love
A word that words are indescribable
Love
A meaning that isn’t directly describable
How many times a person is in love?
Would they understand Love?
How many times a person fall in love?
Would they comprehend Love?
Everyone has their own encounters with love
Falling in love and Falling out of love
There is no right or objectivity
There is no wrong or subjectivity
I am lucky to be in love before
I am lucky to be loved before
Would I know which I prefer more
Would I have the chance to love once more
My Heart is in chains
My Mind is the chain
My Wings are clipped
My Realistic are the clips
But to some
Their Wings are the clip
Their Realistic are being clipped
Their Heart is chained
Their Mind is the chains
Written by Grace Yong 7th July 2006
**Dedicate to my friends in Singapore that are going through this**.
**Have faith and let your Angels guide you**
**It may come to you through your dreams or even your senses!**
Thurs 6th July
In the Box
• iPod nano
• Earbud headphones
• USB 2.0 cable
• Dock adapter
• Case
• QuickStart guide
• CD with iTunes for Mac and Windows and features guide
Up to 14 hours of battery lifeOr up to 4 hours of slideshows with music. The iPod battery can be charged up to 80 percent capacity in an hour and a half; a full charge takes just 3 hours.
AND I HAVE ONE FOR MY BIRTHDAY!~ YAHOOO
ps: Who have one please let me know, i am so new to it and got heaps of question to ask on how to even use it properly ;)
7.06.2006
Wed 5th July
As I am writing this blog watching the 3 am football match between France vs Portugal. Listening to Wu Si Kai music. Old singer when i am in my secondary days, but yet his music is smoothing. Sad... but smoothing.
Watch a movie tonight, The First Daughter, Katie Holmes acting on it. She is the US President daughter and all the "restriction" she had to go through for her parents reputation and career. I couldn't stop but to watch on for I felt for this movie. How I could understand what the script writer is protraying in this movie. Whereever you go, u are being driven. To others, it is such a luxury but to the person who is being driven, u are constantly watched and monitored. You are known where and when u get off and on to a car.
Friends wouldn't really like to be friends with you because they think u are HIGH UP and snobbish but u haven't even done or say anything snobbish. But because of what they see and assume, they think that u are. When you met someone u like, u can't boldly be with that person as you are concern of what your family would take it.
At the end the movie ended with no ending. True, females who are in such a situation, you never know the ending of their lives.
Then later, i watch a TV reality show from the US. "Beauty and the Geek" Wow.... there is these geeks that I couldn't stop thinking, if i were to be with them, is it possible? Geek they sound so, they never been on dates, never kissed before and are still virgins. But yet they have a genuine heart. They are not womaniser. They are sweet and considerate. They definitely are more soft spoken. They would wrap themselves around you. Isn't this good? Isn't this what woman want? But in reality , they are not the first choices woman choose.
I pause for a while. Aren't i one of those woman ??! i wondered how many times "geeks" approached me? How many times I say Sorry, I can't accept you and can only be your friend as my answered to them.
Girls age 16 - 18, they seek boys who are into sports, captians of this captian of that team. They seek boys who dress "cool", have their hair gel, pants altered to the fashion , boot cut or with a flair cut. Some who are quite the average joe, not too geekish but yet good at academic, too are favourites.
Girls age 19-20, things change a little. Geeks are still acceptable here, but geeks guy match with geeks girls. Academic guys goes with academic girls. party guys go with party girls. Slim chance (1%) u get a geek guy with a popular girl. Weird, age around 21, girls are more mature and seek mroe mature guys. Guy who parties and are popular won't go anywhere much unless they really accelarate in the sports industry or in a typical industry they do well (opening a Club or a Pub) is an example of rewards of their partying days.
Girls age 21 (enter the society) - 23 , they seek executives who are in the working force, but yet they seek someone of the opposite. Guys who are into books can have a Clubbin gf, vice versa. People are more versatile and acceptable of differences as they understands the differences is the one that could balance the weight of compatiblity.
Girls age 23 - 25, starting to get more into FUTURE partners but yet still feel they are young. They can still go out and mingle and mix around. Having in their mind, I am under 30! I am still young, sexy and fresh. Sometimes they feel it is time they settle down as it is about the time to settle down to have a family as bearing children is the good age.
Above 25 - 30, lower percentage feels they are still young and higher percentage feels they are old and should have someone who is secure and mature to be with.
All written are just a general statement I perceive, they are woman at 28 29 still partying everynite and having casual partners. But however even so, when u sit down to talk to them, they show their loneliness and they frustration too. WHY ? Simple. They are executives or up to a standard. They need a more mature man to "lead" them. But they are about 33-35 year old man who are married. Or some are after to climb the corporate ladder wishing to get chances with Directors , Managers. Heaps of articles are publish regarding this. Books too. But people are still in this loop hole. Simple again. Because people are only creatures with feelings and desire.
Feelings are something unexplantory. It just comes. Attraction some called it, some called them Lust. Desire is something some put it in the category with Lust, but I define Desire as of materialistic point of view. Is it wrong to be materialistic ? Tell me god damm it who isn't?! As a female age changes, her exposure to people and things changes too. Anyone can be debatable in all terms. A poor girl can be More Materialistic than anyone else but yet a poor girl can be self dependent and seek a simple life with man. As $ can bring happiness but yet it can be more destructive than a tornedo.
There is no right nor wrong in things like that. Comments given to female, u are $ seeker, u are after his $ only, u are a slut, u are a bitch, u are a prositute. To think abt it , ask any girl on the streets, will they marry a man who is poor? Some may say, poor never mind as long as i love him. Yeah right, 6 years down the track, when u are 30 year old with a child or two, would u ?!! would u be so happy wiht it and have no complains or even compare others husband to urs?
I wish not too. I wish to marry him and be a materialistic bitch now than in 10 years time when I have my kid. I do not want to regret. I do not want to at all. I do not want to complain and bitch to others on how lousy my husband is, can't provide this for the family this and that. But to think, it is tough on men too. They have to provide and bear the role of the "MAN" of the house. House loans, Car Loans, Credit card, Children education, Vacations, monthly subsidies to the parents, Household bills, not to mention the Wife.
All crap I have written today. But yet I still want to write it. Continue to speak freely what i feel and think. how often can i do that in real life? I think I am losing my heart already. Losing it till a point whether I am still alive. Am I just in a loop hole that I created and is still thinking there is no way out? So as I speak, i believe there are people out there that are dwelling in loop holes. Why not be like me? Take a break. give urself a day or two to think and feel freely. As my favourite quote "When your heart and mind connects, peace will come to you"
Easy to be said than to be done but have faith, it is up to you to make it happen! Think on the right path, Feel on the right path, Peace will come to your path.
GOod Luck in getting that path that U deserve!
7.04.2006
Little Peom of the Day
To love someone you must learn to let go
For to love them you need not any reasons
To miss someone you must learn to appreciate
For to miss them you need not any rewards
Written by Grace Yong on January 2006
*dedicate to the people who are in the mist of finding some words to their inner feelings*
For to love them you need not any reasons
To miss someone you must learn to appreciate
For to miss them you need not any rewards
Written by Grace Yong on January 2006
*dedicate to the people who are in the mist of finding some words to their inner feelings*
7.03.2006
2nd July - Sunday
A quick pace it was for my 2nd of July.
As i state, i sleep at 6ish in the morning, but got woken up at 9ish by a person. A guy from malaysia. Someone that shows interests to me but yet I have told him that we could never be together. He came all the way from Msia to Singapore to pass me my bday present and sms me on Sat night to tell me to meet him at a MRT station at 10 pm. Gosh!! It freaked me out. I am so angry iwth him. Why can' t we be friends? Why must he push me to the limit to make me really avoid him, banned him from all source of telecommunication? Is that what he really wants of me? Anyway as i was out last night, my batt died. And he start to send me sms saying am i avoiding him, U got to be kidding dude!! Would i need to avoid u like that?! Neways he woke me up at 9ish am, asking to meet up. BOYY I am sooooooo in no good mood and i totally lost my voice as my troat is dry and i made a time for him and he continue taking, harlow!! I just woke up!! I dind't even have a drip of water in my mouth and u want to talk to me!!!! SIAO
Hit back to bed but then i got a lunch appointment at 12pm with elders. OH MAN...... why why why a sunday?! Drag myself up to go lunch at a hakka restaurant. Got back about 3pm and meeting the guy at 4 pm to pick up the present. Was i rude to him? But I just can't handle this anymore from him. i realy can't. I feel he is like not giving me space. He is sofuscating me silently.
Continue my day meeting my primary school friends. It was great. enjoy their presense and to celebrate my bday with me . ahahahha Gesh it seems from 1st July till 4th July, are all my bdays!1 hahahahaha
1st July 06 -Saturday
Friday night , my night out at east coast in Singapore, BFD restaurant. Ordered a shared grilled and have couple of beers. Had a Oreo cheesecake. Watch soccer.yeah, Argintina vs Germany . Left the restaurant about 11ish and went to Thumper for clubbing. Got back home about 2 am.
My lovely 1st July, a new start of the 2nd part of year 2006. Any feelings I can share? Awaken i was as I got 11 am breakfast appointment however i mistaken it as 11.30 am ! Mate called but luckily i was pretty much ready. Went for yumcha and then went for drinks at a Coffee Club in Raffles place.Got home around 3ish , muckering around and went out for dinner. Location: Bodak Jones. an american restaurant under a HDB flat and u can get a good nice steak/ burger for S6.00- 8.00. Tell me about it !! ahhaha the chips are nice too. As i was celebrating my birthday, i got a free cake for desert, warm chocolate cake. Went over to mates place and watch soccer, England vs protogal. Had another bday cake, Fruit cake. Then contine to watch the following match , Brazil vs France, couldn't take it and got home around 4ish . Had a chat and i think.. ohh boy i thiink i went to bed around 6ish.
A quite quick pace of movement for my 1st of July then flows into 2nd of July uncounsiously.
My lovely 1st July, a new start of the 2nd part of year 2006. Any feelings I can share? Awaken i was as I got 11 am breakfast appointment however i mistaken it as 11.30 am ! Mate called but luckily i was pretty much ready. Went for yumcha and then went for drinks at a Coffee Club in Raffles place.Got home around 3ish , muckering around and went out for dinner. Location: Bodak Jones. an american restaurant under a HDB flat and u can get a good nice steak/ burger for S6.00- 8.00. Tell me about it !! ahhaha the chips are nice too. As i was celebrating my birthday, i got a free cake for desert, warm chocolate cake. Went over to mates place and watch soccer, England vs protogal. Had another bday cake, Fruit cake. Then contine to watch the following match , Brazil vs France, couldn't take it and got home around 4ish . Had a chat and i think.. ohh boy i thiink i went to bed around 6ish.
A quite quick pace of movement for my 1st of July then flows into 2nd of July uncounsiously.
5.30.2006
Gracey in Sngapore
I am finally in Singapore now. Quite settled in. I do have to say, Singaporeans or whoever works in Singapore are so well dress. They pretty much are ready to go for a cocktail party if they want.
Ohhhhh my........... hhehehe
Ohhhhh my........... hhehehe
1.09.2006
Behind a Successful XX there is a XX
As listening to some music, A1 boy band......
Their music is young. Sweet and teenager stress-free music and all it sang on is Love, You are the only One and How Much I miss you etc etc. Can't help myself but to recall the days when i am in that "lovey dovey" stage. All in mind and heart is the boy I love. ..... *a smile appears in my heart when i even think about the innocence of myself*
We grow up to be more realistic. To learn to provide for your own and for ur family. In that, sometimes we choose paths that is not what we want, or even choose someone we do not really love but feel satisfy with his/her status. Debation, Novels, Professionals, Doctors in this area are most popular when people searches for advise help in this manner. Yes, the most and beloved topic - Relationships.
Men (some) say that career is more important but yet too can be so vunerable when they meet the 'right' girl. She can melt his heart and change his course, better still, she can be patient and wait for him and do what necessasity to support him which then comes with 2 scenario: -
1. He remembers and feel appreciate of what you done for him and feel u can be a good "wife" and do marry you and love you back as much as you do.
2. Remembers and Appreciate and feel u can be the a good wife and mother to his children but yet fall in love with another woman that satisfy his urge for romance or even his lust.
A senior one say recently to me: Behind a Successful Man there is a Woman (though he didn't say whether the woman is be the wife or not)
Women (some) say that career is more important but yet in time a woman is still a woman. Lord created woman to nurish her children and to care for her family. Yes, there is a lot of businesswoman out there, woman politician and all aspect of career there can be women out there. But yet, end of the day when they are 35 and above, what would they be finding themselves lacking?! Someone next to them. Toy-boys, Younger Age men, A Smarter Career Men, Mentality more superior, Mentality lower. Any sorts but end of it, a PARTNER. a Companion.
The 20th century, it has too be applicable to : Behind a Successful Woman there is a Man
Males or Female - Humans need a companion and a partner. People feel lonely. Some like to have sex buddies, some like to have dating partner. But end of the day, they don't want to be alone at night. Why night? Why not day? For a cancerian like me, the night rules me. Thats when the moon take over my soul and mind. I feel myself very vunerable at night specially with a full moon or half a moon. Sometimes I jsut want to shut down and not talk to anyone. Sometimes i feel sad and lonely. Sometimes I write my peoms on a full moon night and wept myself to comfort.
Indeed, the universe has it own power in life forms. Human bonding comes easier at night, specially with a reason to go out party and drink alcohol where human can interact without words but yet feel it is OK. Human self- reflect comes more emotional at night compare to day time.
As my reader for this, if you see a full moon. Stop for a 10 seconds (won't say 1 second). 10 seconds at least and look into the moon. Feel its energy and breath. Breath in the oxygen that you require and feel its message and comfort. Ask a question that you are seeking for an answer; And the answer would flow in to you.
Their music is young. Sweet and teenager stress-free music and all it sang on is Love, You are the only One and How Much I miss you etc etc. Can't help myself but to recall the days when i am in that "lovey dovey" stage. All in mind and heart is the boy I love. ..... *a smile appears in my heart when i even think about the innocence of myself*
We grow up to be more realistic. To learn to provide for your own and for ur family. In that, sometimes we choose paths that is not what we want, or even choose someone we do not really love but feel satisfy with his/her status. Debation, Novels, Professionals, Doctors in this area are most popular when people searches for advise help in this manner. Yes, the most and beloved topic - Relationships.
Men (some) say that career is more important but yet too can be so vunerable when they meet the 'right' girl. She can melt his heart and change his course, better still, she can be patient and wait for him and do what necessasity to support him which then comes with 2 scenario: -
1. He remembers and feel appreciate of what you done for him and feel u can be a good "wife" and do marry you and love you back as much as you do.
2. Remembers and Appreciate and feel u can be the a good wife and mother to his children but yet fall in love with another woman that satisfy his urge for romance or even his lust.
A senior one say recently to me: Behind a Successful Man there is a Woman (though he didn't say whether the woman is be the wife or not)
Women (some) say that career is more important but yet in time a woman is still a woman. Lord created woman to nurish her children and to care for her family. Yes, there is a lot of businesswoman out there, woman politician and all aspect of career there can be women out there. But yet, end of the day when they are 35 and above, what would they be finding themselves lacking?! Someone next to them. Toy-boys, Younger Age men, A Smarter Career Men, Mentality more superior, Mentality lower. Any sorts but end of it, a PARTNER. a Companion.
The 20th century, it has too be applicable to : Behind a Successful Woman there is a Man
Males or Female - Humans need a companion and a partner. People feel lonely. Some like to have sex buddies, some like to have dating partner. But end of the day, they don't want to be alone at night. Why night? Why not day? For a cancerian like me, the night rules me. Thats when the moon take over my soul and mind. I feel myself very vunerable at night specially with a full moon or half a moon. Sometimes I jsut want to shut down and not talk to anyone. Sometimes i feel sad and lonely. Sometimes I write my peoms on a full moon night and wept myself to comfort.
Indeed, the universe has it own power in life forms. Human bonding comes easier at night, specially with a reason to go out party and drink alcohol where human can interact without words but yet feel it is OK. Human self- reflect comes more emotional at night compare to day time.
As my reader for this, if you see a full moon. Stop for a 10 seconds (won't say 1 second). 10 seconds at least and look into the moon. Feel its energy and breath. Breath in the oxygen that you require and feel its message and comfort. Ask a question that you are seeking for an answer; And the answer would flow in to you.
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