Saturday 8th July

Simple as I thought I am. People commented that my blog looks gloomy, sounds sad, sounds pessimistic, sounds so desperate. hahhaahhahaha well, maybe I am. It does seem I am less strength when I blogged as I open up myself to whatever I think and feel.

In terms of family, no matter how much I am unhappy with them, but yet I still bow down to their "orders" and "expectation" they have to me. Why? Simple - I love them and it is in my nature to be filial.

In terms of relationship, no matter what I dream to be with it, but yet at the end I would still go with my feelings, and would be with someone I love even he is poor than to be with someone who is OK but I don't love. Why? Simple - I can't let my heart die as it is just not me.

In terms of career, no matter how I wish I am in the position, but yet I am just a average working class. Why? Simple - I am good at something but yet to find out about it. I can be a great support to a company but yet I could be a great businesswoman for myself.

In terms of financial, no matter how much I want money, but yet I don't think I am to that level of "in love" of money. Why? Simple - I believe you need money to live but money couldn't buy you everything. A rich girl may not have true friendship like a normal girl could have. A rich girl may not have pure romance as a normal girl could have.

I am who I am, and I would learn to be happy for who I am and what I am.